Ok. This would not be a long usual post because I am apparently using to chalet's dirty keyboard and I don't think I can type for a long time without actual seeing the letters I am typing since I covered it using my tissue. LOL
Well, this is the last week of my second semester which means I only have one semester left. Yeah.. Holiday.. Supposely I should be very happy, but unfortunately.. I have a lot of catching up to do during this 7 weeks of holiday!!! GAH!! Not to mention about the tons of homework!! Well, that's life, huh...
Gosh!! Yesterday end of semester dinner give me a bad night.. I ate like a cow yesterday.. Yeah, there goes my diet.. I had nasi lemak with chicken, a bowl of laksa and a bowl of "chee cheong fan".. Don't know what it's called in english..:P Oh!! Forgot to mention I had roti John and Apam Malik too... I feel so bloated until today!!! SHEESH!!! Well, what can I say?? Free food!! * According to Amirah*
Finished my AS this week!! Finally, I can have a break after such long 2 months of exam!! YES, 2 MONTHS!!!
Jean told me about this new blog website called tumblr.. Hmm.. Anyone who is interested can visit my blog in www.whateverinterestsme.tumblr.com ! I created it today so don't expect anything from it!
Well, I think that's all..
Quote: Let my hair down, so that I can see the world in a wider perspective. Lift my head up, so that I can see how small we are in this universe. Small as we are, but we have our part to play in making the world a better place.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Through the keyhole
When we were young, the world seemed so beautiful and nice. We are naive and we worry about nothing! Yet, as we grow older, we saw the the world differently.
I remembered when I was a kid, my ambition is to be a cashier. Yes, it seemed very stupid but I still remember why I wanna be a cashier. I am fascinated by the machine that they used!! My sister still laugh at me when she think back. But, that's the true. Now, I don't even know what I wanna be. It's so complicated and I seriously don't know what's my interest.. Funny huh..
When I am still a kid, I always thought policemen were the good people who protect the people. Yet, as I grew older, the thought somehow disappeared. Now, I think that policemen are not the people who protect the citizens, rather some of them are the one who are responsible in causing problems to the country.
When I am still a kid, I don't care about status and money. I think that money can't buy happiness. Now, I am money-oriented and getting a career is for the sake of money. I am not proud of my thinking but what can I do? Indeed, money can't buy happiness but they do help in inducing happiness. It makes me happy when I go home. I need a car to go home, which means I need petrol. Petrol needs money and therefore, we do need money to buy happiness.
When I am a kid, I don't care how I look. I can go out wearing my baggy clothes and I don't care about my weight either. My cousins used to call me fat or something but I don't even bother. Now, even though I am in the range of normal weight, I am very conscious of how I look and I am dieting at the moment.
There you have it.. When we are kids, we see the world using a magnifying glass. Everything seem so big and nice. We don't care about what people think.. When we get old, we see the world through a keyhole. Everything seem so small and not ideal anymore. We are conscious of what people think of us and try to fit in the society. So sit back and think.. What makes us change our mind? Can we use our childhood innocence as a key to open the keyhole, go behind the door and see the world in a wide perspective??
I remembered when I was a kid, my ambition is to be a cashier. Yes, it seemed very stupid but I still remember why I wanna be a cashier. I am fascinated by the machine that they used!! My sister still laugh at me when she think back. But, that's the true. Now, I don't even know what I wanna be. It's so complicated and I seriously don't know what's my interest.. Funny huh..
When I am still a kid, I always thought policemen were the good people who protect the people. Yet, as I grew older, the thought somehow disappeared. Now, I think that policemen are not the people who protect the citizens, rather some of them are the one who are responsible in causing problems to the country.
When I am still a kid, I don't care about status and money. I think that money can't buy happiness. Now, I am money-oriented and getting a career is for the sake of money. I am not proud of my thinking but what can I do? Indeed, money can't buy happiness but they do help in inducing happiness. It makes me happy when I go home. I need a car to go home, which means I need petrol. Petrol needs money and therefore, we do need money to buy happiness.
When I am a kid, I don't care how I look. I can go out wearing my baggy clothes and I don't care about my weight either. My cousins used to call me fat or something but I don't even bother. Now, even though I am in the range of normal weight, I am very conscious of how I look and I am dieting at the moment.
There you have it.. When we are kids, we see the world using a magnifying glass. Everything seem so big and nice. We don't care about what people think.. When we get old, we see the world through a keyhole. Everything seem so small and not ideal anymore. We are conscious of what people think of us and try to fit in the society. So sit back and think.. What makes us change our mind? Can we use our childhood innocence as a key to open the keyhole, go behind the door and see the world in a wide perspective??
Friday, November 6, 2009
Dedicated to my sister
While I was busy studying for my biology, I saw my phone ringing.. I was my sister.. She sent me a message saying:" Can you call me?"
That instant, I thought that maybe she wanted me to call this chemistry tuition teacher. Yet, when she picked up the call, I heard sobbing......
She had ended the stage that she went to. Which I will not state what it is as it is very private talk. The thing that I wanna stretch here is that, being the eldest among 3 younger siblings. I am always the one that they can lean on when they are facing problems and doesn't want to tell the parents. I am like a part time parent to them when my parents went for vacation. I am my younger sister and brother playmates although we are approximately having 8 years gap. I am also my 15 year old sister shoulder to cry on.
When she wanted me to call her, I am relieved that at least she will find me when she encounter problems and I don't mind cause that is what being a sister do! Yet, the thing is that, I am not good in counseling people and I can only give reasonable advice since I reason with everything before making the decision. I felt like crying when I heard her sounding so sad. Yes, I will admit that I am very emotional but it's just human nature. When someone that you care got hurt, you will feel sad too and want to help them to get better.
So, Wei.. Stop being so sad. It is a part of you growing up! I still remembered when I have my first heart break and it is really heartwretching. I understand how you feel but it will pass!! You still have your friends and family! Cheer up and get your butt out of your comfort zone!! :)
That instant, I thought that maybe she wanted me to call this chemistry tuition teacher. Yet, when she picked up the call, I heard sobbing......
She had ended the stage that she went to. Which I will not state what it is as it is very private talk. The thing that I wanna stretch here is that, being the eldest among 3 younger siblings. I am always the one that they can lean on when they are facing problems and doesn't want to tell the parents. I am like a part time parent to them when my parents went for vacation. I am my younger sister and brother playmates although we are approximately having 8 years gap. I am also my 15 year old sister shoulder to cry on.
When she wanted me to call her, I am relieved that at least she will find me when she encounter problems and I don't mind cause that is what being a sister do! Yet, the thing is that, I am not good in counseling people and I can only give reasonable advice since I reason with everything before making the decision. I felt like crying when I heard her sounding so sad. Yes, I will admit that I am very emotional but it's just human nature. When someone that you care got hurt, you will feel sad too and want to help them to get better.
So, Wei.. Stop being so sad. It is a part of you growing up! I still remembered when I have my first heart break and it is really heartwretching. I understand how you feel but it will pass!! You still have your friends and family! Cheer up and get your butt out of your comfort zone!! :)
Monday, October 26, 2009
To Daddy, With Love
I always thought that my dad is the family man type, which means he won't express his feelings openly but show it in his actions. My mum is different because whenever we talk on phone, we will tell each other that we love each other.
Then, came one incident that change my thought about my dad.
It was Sunday the previous week when I came back college. Being known for blurness, it did not cross my mind the whole time that I have forgotten to bring my file back. You get what I mean if you are in the same college as I am. It's the green file. Ok. back to the story. When I wanted to start revising, I realised that I don't have my file with me. I freaked out, literally!! I was screaming OMG all the time that Veena thought it was something really important. Well, it is for me. My timetable, my notes and even my trial bio practical is in there. Then, without thinking, I hit call on my phone and called my mum.. She didn't pick up which makes me even anxious. Then, I called my dad. He picked up and asked me what's wrong since I just went back.
I told him the whole story and I expected a lecture from him. Yet, he just said he will bring it tomorrow and tell me not to be so careless next time. The minute I put down my phone, I begin to feel guilty and starting to think how far my dad needs to travel just to bring a file. Tears start gushing down and I feel really bad..
The next day evening, he came and it makes me even more guilty. After travelling for about 45 minutes from work, he went down the car with a smile and pat me on the shoulder. I said thank you and he just said ok. Then he went. My eyes were fixed on his car until I can't see him anymore. I felt really bad and so I texted him, saying that I love him. Then he replied, "me too!" I swear that I am gonna cry the very next minute but I hold back my tears.
I've learned that it's not that my dad doesn't express his feeling openly but it's just that we never make an attempt to do so. This incident also tells me how much my dad loves us and how far will he go to make sure we have what we need.
SO, DADDY... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!
Then, came one incident that change my thought about my dad.
It was Sunday the previous week when I came back college. Being known for blurness, it did not cross my mind the whole time that I have forgotten to bring my file back. You get what I mean if you are in the same college as I am. It's the green file. Ok. back to the story. When I wanted to start revising, I realised that I don't have my file with me. I freaked out, literally!! I was screaming OMG all the time that Veena thought it was something really important. Well, it is for me. My timetable, my notes and even my trial bio practical is in there. Then, without thinking, I hit call on my phone and called my mum.. She didn't pick up which makes me even anxious. Then, I called my dad. He picked up and asked me what's wrong since I just went back.
I told him the whole story and I expected a lecture from him. Yet, he just said he will bring it tomorrow and tell me not to be so careless next time. The minute I put down my phone, I begin to feel guilty and starting to think how far my dad needs to travel just to bring a file. Tears start gushing down and I feel really bad..
The next day evening, he came and it makes me even more guilty. After travelling for about 45 minutes from work, he went down the car with a smile and pat me on the shoulder. I said thank you and he just said ok. Then he went. My eyes were fixed on his car until I can't see him anymore. I felt really bad and so I texted him, saying that I love him. Then he replied, "me too!" I swear that I am gonna cry the very next minute but I hold back my tears.
I've learned that it's not that my dad doesn't express his feeling openly but it's just that we never make an attempt to do so. This incident also tells me how much my dad loves us and how far will he go to make sure we have what we need.
SO, DADDY... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
There's nothing wrong being alone. I just need to be independent, that's all.
Throughout all these years, friends are really something that I care about deeply. If my best friend is not happy, then I won't be. If my best friend is happy, then I will be the same. Plus, I am a person who is afraid of being alone. That's why to me, friend is important.
Now, I have found out something. How lucky I was back then to have a friend to lean on, a friend to share my joy and sorrow, and will respect me in all ways. As much as I hate to say this, I have been hanging out with the wrong person right from the very beginning. This "friend" of mine is getting bored of me and switching to new people now. Maybe to him/her, I am just another person crossing his/her life and nothing more. But, he/she does not know how much pain that had cost me. I treat them wholeheartedly, hoping that they would do the same to me. BUT NO! I've been through this before, and I ended up switching school. I ran away last time and I ain't gonna do it anymore. I am sick of being so dependent on that particular one person. That's why I am changing now. I am going to start hanging out with different types of people. Making friends, for me it's very hard but I am sure I can do it!
Thinking about it now, maybe that's why they are bored of me. I am too dependent. I should stop my childish behaviour and start being mature and have fun. I am sure that I can do it. Worse come to worse, I only have 9 more months here. So it's going to be ok. I have to reassure myself that I am going to be ok. There's nothing wrong being single and alone anyway, we are born alone in this world and one day we are going to die alone. That's why I don't understand why people are so afraid being alone, including myself. *sigh*
I can do it.. I can do it.. I can do it...
Now, I have found out something. How lucky I was back then to have a friend to lean on, a friend to share my joy and sorrow, and will respect me in all ways. As much as I hate to say this, I have been hanging out with the wrong person right from the very beginning. This "friend" of mine is getting bored of me and switching to new people now. Maybe to him/her, I am just another person crossing his/her life and nothing more. But, he/she does not know how much pain that had cost me. I treat them wholeheartedly, hoping that they would do the same to me. BUT NO! I've been through this before, and I ended up switching school. I ran away last time and I ain't gonna do it anymore. I am sick of being so dependent on that particular one person. That's why I am changing now. I am going to start hanging out with different types of people. Making friends, for me it's very hard but I am sure I can do it!
Thinking about it now, maybe that's why they are bored of me. I am too dependent. I should stop my childish behaviour and start being mature and have fun. I am sure that I can do it. Worse come to worse, I only have 9 more months here. So it's going to be ok. I have to reassure myself that I am going to be ok. There's nothing wrong being single and alone anyway, we are born alone in this world and one day we are going to die alone. That's why I don't understand why people are so afraid being alone, including myself. *sigh*
I can do it.. I can do it.. I can do it...
Sunday, August 16, 2009
My Ultimate Weekend
I reached the gold level of otaku last weekend. For those who knew I was staying back in college will doubt whether I am in college or not since I have not appear in everwhere for the whole weekend.
The simple reason is that... I have NOT step out of my chalet! Literally speaking!!
Due to the fact that our chalet only consisted of me and Illiany as Dal and Fang Yen went for DOE expedition, I have no reason to go out. All the things that I needed are in my room. I eat there, sleep there, study there and even watch movie there. When Nan went to my chalet, she asked if I went back and I said I am still here, she got a shock!! I have been invisible the whole weekend. I don't think anybody could ever sit in the hot room for 2 days. Well, I tried. Yesterday when I finally came out to takeaway my dinner, it seems like I've been in my room too long that my eyes need time to adjust the amount of light present. Ridiculous as it seems, but totally true.
Schedule of that weekend:
after class.. Gossip girl..
Study after that..
Decided to shower followed by my Maggi Dinner.
Back to studying.
Gossip Girl again.
Listening to radio... Then sleep until 10am the next day.
Sunday:
Wake up and had tuna bread for breakfast.
Study for 2 hours
Gossip girl 2 hours.
Repeat the whole cycle again until after dinner
Study until 10 something..
Sleep while listening to radio which I eventually switched off due to ridiculous noisy songs.
THE END OF MY EXTREMELY OTAKU WEEKEND!
The simple reason is that... I have NOT step out of my chalet! Literally speaking!!
Due to the fact that our chalet only consisted of me and Illiany as Dal and Fang Yen went for DOE expedition, I have no reason to go out. All the things that I needed are in my room. I eat there, sleep there, study there and even watch movie there. When Nan went to my chalet, she asked if I went back and I said I am still here, she got a shock!! I have been invisible the whole weekend. I don't think anybody could ever sit in the hot room for 2 days. Well, I tried. Yesterday when I finally came out to takeaway my dinner, it seems like I've been in my room too long that my eyes need time to adjust the amount of light present. Ridiculous as it seems, but totally true.
Schedule of that weekend:
after class.. Gossip girl..
Study after that..
Decided to shower followed by my Maggi Dinner.
Back to studying.
Gossip Girl again.
Listening to radio... Then sleep until 10am the next day.
Sunday:
Wake up and had tuna bread for breakfast.
Study for 2 hours
Gossip girl 2 hours.
Repeat the whole cycle again until after dinner
Study until 10 something..
Sleep while listening to radio which I eventually switched off due to ridiculous noisy songs.
THE END OF MY EXTREMELY OTAKU WEEKEND!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Survival Rule in Lembah Beringin. by ME
Right, I am particular about things. Many things, actually. I called them Li Ern's Rule to Live in Lembah Beringin. I think that is my biggest weakness. Let see:
1) I need to sleep at by latest 12am because I am particular about the time and a healthy lifestyle should comprised of at least 6-7 hours of sleep.
2) I have to eat at 6.45pm. It has whatsoever nothing to do with a healthy lifestyle. It is just a thing that I think is proper to do. Plus, it's a rountine for me to eat at 6.45pm.. Not 6.40pm, not 6.50pm but 6.45pm..
3) I don't take snacks, even if I am very hungry. Well, I scared that I might put on weight and for me it is not proper to eat other than normal mealtime. Pathetic, right?
4) Hmm... I have to stop studying at 11pm to prepare myself to sleep. Well, if I have so much work that haven't been done, then this rule is excluded.
5)Feet should not be on my bed whatsoever! Yup!! I just can't stand people when they put my feet on my bed. I know it is mean, but what can I do? I sleep on it so I have to make sure it has to be clean.
6) One burger is allowed per week. NO MORE THAN 1! This rule is set by myself and Kai Ye when we realised we have been burger too many times a week.
7) Not having lunch. Well, the simple reason is that dieting. I, unfortunately gain weight everytime there's a holiday. Therefore, to make myself feel less guilty, I decided to only take fruits and at most 2 pieces of bread for lunch. Still following!
8)No sound when I am asleep. Not even whispering. I know, I know.. I am being ridiculous but I seriously will wake up even there's slightest noise! And trust me, you won't want to mess with me when I woke up due to this factor. If you want to know what I will do, feel free to ask Dal.
9) Coffee is a MUST for breakfast. Well, if coffee weren't serve, tea will do. I started this practise after I realised that Coffee or tea will jumpstart your metabolic rate and so I start to take in at least a cup of caffeine a day. What a wierd reason to do so.
At last,
10) The above listed things must be followed no matter what happen. Well, unless I say to myself that I am excluding myself from following it.
1) I need to sleep at by latest 12am because I am particular about the time and a healthy lifestyle should comprised of at least 6-7 hours of sleep.
2) I have to eat at 6.45pm. It has whatsoever nothing to do with a healthy lifestyle. It is just a thing that I think is proper to do. Plus, it's a rountine for me to eat at 6.45pm.. Not 6.40pm, not 6.50pm but 6.45pm..
3) I don't take snacks, even if I am very hungry. Well, I scared that I might put on weight and for me it is not proper to eat other than normal mealtime. Pathetic, right?
4) Hmm... I have to stop studying at 11pm to prepare myself to sleep. Well, if I have so much work that haven't been done, then this rule is excluded.
5)Feet should not be on my bed whatsoever! Yup!! I just can't stand people when they put my feet on my bed. I know it is mean, but what can I do? I sleep on it so I have to make sure it has to be clean.
6) One burger is allowed per week. NO MORE THAN 1! This rule is set by myself and Kai Ye when we realised we have been burger too many times a week.
7) Not having lunch. Well, the simple reason is that dieting. I, unfortunately gain weight everytime there's a holiday. Therefore, to make myself feel less guilty, I decided to only take fruits and at most 2 pieces of bread for lunch. Still following!
8)No sound when I am asleep. Not even whispering. I know, I know.. I am being ridiculous but I seriously will wake up even there's slightest noise! And trust me, you won't want to mess with me when I woke up due to this factor. If you want to know what I will do, feel free to ask Dal.
9) Coffee is a MUST for breakfast. Well, if coffee weren't serve, tea will do. I started this practise after I realised that Coffee or tea will jumpstart your metabolic rate and so I start to take in at least a cup of caffeine a day. What a wierd reason to do so.
At last,
10) The above listed things must be followed no matter what happen. Well, unless I say to myself that I am excluding myself from following it.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Of sharp-looking eyes and child-like face plus behaviour..
Situation 1:"Did you know that you look very scary when you are not smiling??" I often got this comment from people who are not close to me. They say when I look at them, if looks could kill, they would have died straight away. But!! It's not that I am really angry or something like that. Sometimes I just simply stare into the space but people would say that I am staring at them. Well, I am born with sharp-looking eyes!! What can I possibly do about that?? That's me!!
Situation 2: During the week off from my college, I went to the bank to change my account from a teenager's account into an adult's account. When I am asking a guy who worked there, he gave me this suspicous look and asked: " When did you turned 18?" What?!!!! I told him last month, and he then begun to check the database. "Ah... Yes, yes,yes.." and gave me an apologizing smile.Hey!! What does that mean??? My family always commented that my face hasn't change abit... Even abit since Standard 6!! Yeah.. I look pretty old when I am in Standard 6. My sister always told me and for your information, it's my younger sister, that if I went back to my secondary school and wear a pinafore, nobody will ever notice that I had graduated!!!!
Situation 3: Enough about my sharp-looking eyes and child-like face, another problem.... My Peter Pan's Syndrome.. Well... To me, it's not much of a problem but to my parents... Well, maybe.. Stepping into adulthood, it seems like my brain is stuck in year 2004?!!! Well, that explain why my behaviour comes in a package with my face. Anyway, my sister AGAIN always commented that I never do grow up. I still like to read comics and watch tv.. Well, what does grown up do then?? Work.. Work.. Work everyday??? I don't like watching dramas from Hong Kong or Taiwan.. I don't buy those chinese novels that I've seen my classmates holding since Standard 6.. So what??? I am unique.. Well, that's what I think.. :P
So anyway, please bear with me and try to understand that when I stare at you, I am not angry at you.. I am 18 although I look and behave younger than my chronological age.. AND BEING A KID IS NOT A PROBLEM AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHEN TO STOP!!
Situation 2: During the week off from my college, I went to the bank to change my account from a teenager's account into an adult's account. When I am asking a guy who worked there, he gave me this suspicous look and asked: " When did you turned 18?" What?!!!! I told him last month, and he then begun to check the database. "Ah... Yes, yes,yes.." and gave me an apologizing smile.Hey!! What does that mean??? My family always commented that my face hasn't change abit... Even abit since Standard 6!! Yeah.. I look pretty old when I am in Standard 6. My sister always told me and for your information, it's my younger sister, that if I went back to my secondary school and wear a pinafore, nobody will ever notice that I had graduated!!!!
Situation 3: Enough about my sharp-looking eyes and child-like face, another problem.... My Peter Pan's Syndrome.. Well... To me, it's not much of a problem but to my parents... Well, maybe.. Stepping into adulthood, it seems like my brain is stuck in year 2004?!!! Well, that explain why my behaviour comes in a package with my face. Anyway, my sister AGAIN always commented that I never do grow up. I still like to read comics and watch tv.. Well, what does grown up do then?? Work.. Work.. Work everyday??? I don't like watching dramas from Hong Kong or Taiwan.. I don't buy those chinese novels that I've seen my classmates holding since Standard 6.. So what??? I am unique.. Well, that's what I think.. :P
So anyway, please bear with me and try to understand that when I stare at you, I am not angry at you.. I am 18 although I look and behave younger than my chronological age.. AND BEING A KID IS NOT A PROBLEM AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHEN TO STOP!!
Sunday, July 19, 2009
My Dilemma..
This week, I am sadly to say, staying back in my college. Well, the good thing is that, I can study. I can't believe that it's going to be 2 months until my AS exam trial. I mean, I just got out from SPM and now this? Man, it makes me think that I am actually speeding to get out of education. Well, that's what the original plan of my parents and myself, right? Graduating a year earlier than my secondary school's friends who went to Form 6. Now, everybody is thinking about his/her personal statement.
The point is, 99.9% of this college's students are going to UK. BUT, I am not. I am the 0.01% student. Sometimes, having know that I am not going to UK makes me think that I am not up to other people's standard and I am just going to stay in Malaysia, so why bother coming here in the first place? The students here are studying everyday cause they are aiming for Cambridge and Oxford or other top universities in UK. But me? I am just a girl whose going to University of Nottingham in Malaysia. Yes, in Malaysia.
Does that mean that I am not as good as other people? I don't need to work as hard as people? I am dumb enough to stay in Malaysia? Well, after thinking about it, the answer is NO! I work as hard as any other people and I do not consider myself as some lazy old bum and not as good as other people. There are a few reasons for me to stay:-
1) I am not sponsored and going to UK is expensive in terms of tuition fees as well as the cost of living.
2) UK is extremely far and that means I can only come back once in a year.
3) I am the only student doing pharmacy in the entire batch and that's mean I will be going alone to UK.
4) Money. Yes, everything is about money!
I do want to get the best education, believe me. But, after much consideration, I decided to stick with twinning program of 2+2 in Nottingham Malaysia campus. Well, I might consider Curtin University Australia as Australia is nearer and the cost of living is not that high as compared to UK.
It's just the thought of everybody going to top universities that bothers me. I don't want to be think as someone who is not qualified enough to be accepted into the top universities.
The point is, 99.9% of this college's students are going to UK. BUT, I am not. I am the 0.01% student. Sometimes, having know that I am not going to UK makes me think that I am not up to other people's standard and I am just going to stay in Malaysia, so why bother coming here in the first place? The students here are studying everyday cause they are aiming for Cambridge and Oxford or other top universities in UK. But me? I am just a girl whose going to University of Nottingham in Malaysia. Yes, in Malaysia.
Does that mean that I am not as good as other people? I don't need to work as hard as people? I am dumb enough to stay in Malaysia? Well, after thinking about it, the answer is NO! I work as hard as any other people and I do not consider myself as some lazy old bum and not as good as other people. There are a few reasons for me to stay:-
1) I am not sponsored and going to UK is expensive in terms of tuition fees as well as the cost of living.
2) UK is extremely far and that means I can only come back once in a year.
3) I am the only student doing pharmacy in the entire batch and that's mean I will be going alone to UK.
4) Money. Yes, everything is about money!
I do want to get the best education, believe me. But, after much consideration, I decided to stick with twinning program of 2+2 in Nottingham Malaysia campus. Well, I might consider Curtin University Australia as Australia is nearer and the cost of living is not that high as compared to UK.
It's just the thought of everybody going to top universities that bothers me. I don't want to be think as someone who is not qualified enough to be accepted into the top universities.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Opening my second chapter
Today, I got back to the jungle.. Literally....
It takes me more than an hour to unpacked. Then, me and Dal decided to go to cafe for a late lunch. That time, my heart is still at home. I am just a mere body without a soul wondering around the college. After lunch only, my senses had slowly creep back into my body. I begin to feel that I am once again here.
I felt homesick, that's the sign I get when I finally realised that I am indeed here. Here again.....
Of course, I felt like going home. I felt that something is missing in me, but I did not cry. I kept reminding myself that in 2 weeks time, I will be back home.. Yeah... In two weeks time... Huh....
I need to distract myself in the mean time... I found manga powerful in distracting me.....
GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It takes me more than an hour to unpacked. Then, me and Dal decided to go to cafe for a late lunch. That time, my heart is still at home. I am just a mere body without a soul wondering around the college. After lunch only, my senses had slowly creep back into my body. I begin to feel that I am once again here.
I felt homesick, that's the sign I get when I finally realised that I am indeed here. Here again.....
Of course, I felt like going home. I felt that something is missing in me, but I did not cry. I kept reminding myself that in 2 weeks time, I will be back home.. Yeah... In two weeks time... Huh....
I need to distract myself in the mean time... I found manga powerful in distracting me.....
GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
The Plain Solid Truth
I noticed that I haven't been honest with myself for a long time. Ever since I was stabbed deeply in the heart by a jerk.. So, I will tell something which is true about myself this time.
Firstly, I am really lazy..
I can sit wholeday reading manga and watch anime.
I hate people who are not honest but I am behaving like one, I think sometimes.
I am interested in someone who had 2 vowels in his/her name.
I am seriously homesick, even now.
My mental age is not my physiological age.
Sometimes, I just want to lie in the bed the entire day.
I think I am slacking in whatever I am doing.
I am emotional and sensitive.
My sense of humor is undeniably dry.
And, I think I should stop right now!!!
Firstly, I am really lazy..
I can sit wholeday reading manga and watch anime.
I hate people who are not honest but I am behaving like one, I think sometimes.
I am interested in someone who had 2 vowels in his/her name.
I am seriously homesick, even now.
My mental age is not my physiological age.
Sometimes, I just want to lie in the bed the entire day.
I think I am slacking in whatever I am doing.
I am emotional and sensitive.
My sense of humor is undeniably dry.
And, I think I should stop right now!!!
Switching language
Yesterday, I found out that they are switching back into teaching science as well as math in Bahasa Malaysia. I think it is quite ridiculous. No offense but it really is.
Take my younger sister for example, she is sitting for her UPSR this year and will be entering secondary school next year. During form 1 to form 3, she will learn math and science in english. Yet, when she reached form 4, she will be learning it in BM. Think about it, all the terms for especially science will be in BM when she reached form 4. I am sure she will have a hard time trying to re-learn everything. Plus, after learning 2 years in BM, she will switch back to English as I am sure my dad will send her for A-level. That time, she will have to struggle again to re-learn the whole thing. What a waste of time and energy trying to learn the same thing all over again for twice!
As our leaders wished Malaysia will be a fully-grown country in near future, why switch back? All of the materials are in English now and we all know that English is no doubt, the international language. By learning Chemistry, Biology and Physics in BM, is it going to help the students to excel better in Universities? NO! I know the reason of switching back is due to the drop of grades in rural areas. Yes, it is true. But, this is just a short period of time for them to adapt and I strongly believed that, with the help of good English-speaking teachers and time, they will improve. Now, by switching back, we are going backwards. In long run, they will not benefit from this as they will have difficulties when they go to Universities.
When we want to learn something, we must start from young. I am sure everybody knows it. This also implies to this particular issue. By teaching the children from young age, they won't struggle when they reached secondary schools. Moreover, they will have no problem as they go to universities because language is no longer a barrier from them. They can soar to anywhere as long as they are capable of understanding in English. If the teachers can't teach properly in English, well make sure they do. This can be done by having seminars or even giving tests to teachers to make sure they know what they are teaching in English.
We must think in long run not short period. We should not spoon-fed the schoolchildren just to make sure they get a whole load of As in their public exam! This will not help them. Imagine if they get scholarship to study in UK and when they reached there, they don't even know how to communicate well in English. What will the developed countries think Malaysia is? Still a third world country that has yet break the language barrier!
I seriously think the government should reconsider changing the system. If it only implies to primary school then it is still acceptable but not secondary schools. They should think in long run and toughen up the students. Please don't give an easy way out for the school children, they should think positively instead of moaning of changing for a easier life. Nothing is easy in this world!
*If you guys have any opinion, do drop by and give comment about this issue! I think my younger siblings will have to go to international school if this issue is left like this.
Take my younger sister for example, she is sitting for her UPSR this year and will be entering secondary school next year. During form 1 to form 3, she will learn math and science in english. Yet, when she reached form 4, she will be learning it in BM. Think about it, all the terms for especially science will be in BM when she reached form 4. I am sure she will have a hard time trying to re-learn everything. Plus, after learning 2 years in BM, she will switch back to English as I am sure my dad will send her for A-level. That time, she will have to struggle again to re-learn the whole thing. What a waste of time and energy trying to learn the same thing all over again for twice!
As our leaders wished Malaysia will be a fully-grown country in near future, why switch back? All of the materials are in English now and we all know that English is no doubt, the international language. By learning Chemistry, Biology and Physics in BM, is it going to help the students to excel better in Universities? NO! I know the reason of switching back is due to the drop of grades in rural areas. Yes, it is true. But, this is just a short period of time for them to adapt and I strongly believed that, with the help of good English-speaking teachers and time, they will improve. Now, by switching back, we are going backwards. In long run, they will not benefit from this as they will have difficulties when they go to Universities.
When we want to learn something, we must start from young. I am sure everybody knows it. This also implies to this particular issue. By teaching the children from young age, they won't struggle when they reached secondary schools. Moreover, they will have no problem as they go to universities because language is no longer a barrier from them. They can soar to anywhere as long as they are capable of understanding in English. If the teachers can't teach properly in English, well make sure they do. This can be done by having seminars or even giving tests to teachers to make sure they know what they are teaching in English.
We must think in long run not short period. We should not spoon-fed the schoolchildren just to make sure they get a whole load of As in their public exam! This will not help them. Imagine if they get scholarship to study in UK and when they reached there, they don't even know how to communicate well in English. What will the developed countries think Malaysia is? Still a third world country that has yet break the language barrier!
I seriously think the government should reconsider changing the system. If it only implies to primary school then it is still acceptable but not secondary schools. They should think in long run and toughen up the students. Please don't give an easy way out for the school children, they should think positively instead of moaning of changing for a easier life. Nothing is easy in this world!
*If you guys have any opinion, do drop by and give comment about this issue! I think my younger siblings will have to go to international school if this issue is left like this.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
When you are older, does not exactly mean you are wiser though...
Last week, I leapt from 17 to 18.. Yeah, A year older...
I started my B-day with a sorethroat and my sick sister disturbing me to wake me up. Then, I was greeted by Fang Yen's birthday wish.. She was the first one! Followed by Eng Chin, Karming(my "brother"), Andrew, Jasmine and Illiany~
My mum literally forgot my birthday as my sister was sick and she was thinking about cooking mee suah for lunch... Anyway, I turned on my PC and something finally brigthen up my day! So many birthday wishes are on my facebook.. Later, I spent the whole afternoon reading comic. My mum finally remembered today is the day, so she bought me a pair of New Balance shoes which cost RM139.90!! My sister gave me another Gugu, a smaller one though.. For those of you who doesn't know about Gugu's existence, you can always ask me!
My dad simply called to wish me. I did not see that coming though! LOL... We had dinner in Kensington and bought a Baker's Cottage cake. The saddest part is that only 3 of my family members are celebrating with me. My mum was busy washing bottles whereas my sick sister was being knocked out by stomachache..
Although it was not really a celebration, I want to thank all my friends.. Let see.. Diba, Subana, Geetha, Anju, Shifa, Sheldon, Shen Hong, Sally, Dom, Dal, Jim, Evan, Abigail, Wai Shan, Sandra, Eng Chung, Phui Gi, Gregory, Pei Xian, Loshini, Jean, Min Shen, Wei Khee, Azri, Bryan, Arif, Ben, Ili, Amirah, Jo Ann and Krishna! Oh and my cousin in law to be, Wen yi~
I started my B-day with a sorethroat and my sick sister disturbing me to wake me up. Then, I was greeted by Fang Yen's birthday wish.. She was the first one! Followed by Eng Chin, Karming(my "brother"), Andrew, Jasmine and Illiany~
My mum literally forgot my birthday as my sister was sick and she was thinking about cooking mee suah for lunch... Anyway, I turned on my PC and something finally brigthen up my day! So many birthday wishes are on my facebook.. Later, I spent the whole afternoon reading comic. My mum finally remembered today is the day, so she bought me a pair of New Balance shoes which cost RM139.90!! My sister gave me another Gugu, a smaller one though.. For those of you who doesn't know about Gugu's existence, you can always ask me!
My dad simply called to wish me. I did not see that coming though! LOL... We had dinner in Kensington and bought a Baker's Cottage cake. The saddest part is that only 3 of my family members are celebrating with me. My mum was busy washing bottles whereas my sick sister was being knocked out by stomachache..
Although it was not really a celebration, I want to thank all my friends.. Let see.. Diba, Subana, Geetha, Anju, Shifa, Sheldon, Shen Hong, Sally, Dom, Dal, Jim, Evan, Abigail, Wai Shan, Sandra, Eng Chung, Phui Gi, Gregory, Pei Xian, Loshini, Jean, Min Shen, Wei Khee, Azri, Bryan, Arif, Ben, Ili, Amirah, Jo Ann and Krishna! Oh and my cousin in law to be, Wen yi~
Friday, June 19, 2009
Closing the first chapter in KYUEM
Today will mark the end of my first semester in college. Not to mention closing the first chapter of my college life. Seniors graduating, preparing for the incoming batch, etc.... So much are going around me. For six months, SIX months I had been living in this area so-called Lembah Beringin. For six months I had endured the toughness of A-level subject and for six months I had live without my parents and still surviving here.
In a glimpse of an eye, the long six months had gone. I know, I am contradicting myself but I do think it is long. Yet, after the semester dinner yesterday, I had changed my mind because after this break, we all will become seniors. For the seniors at present, they are leaving today. I guess life never really turned out to what we had imagine. During January, I was wondering myself how am I going to survive here without parents??? And now here I am, in my chalet blogging. This experience really changed me alot. Let see:-
1) I can live without my parents although I still go back once a fortnight.
2) I am independent as in I do my own laundry, make my own bed and clean up the whole chalet.
3) I am more discipline as in I study daily basis and no last minute work, let alone General Studies though.
4) I am more active in cocurricular activities as in I help in many events.
5) I exercise now. I REALLY DO EXERCISE NOW!!!!!
Last but not least, I learn that family is really important in one's life.
So, I am closing the first chapter of my life in KYUEM for now.
In a glimpse of an eye, the long six months had gone. I know, I am contradicting myself but I do think it is long. Yet, after the semester dinner yesterday, I had changed my mind because after this break, we all will become seniors. For the seniors at present, they are leaving today. I guess life never really turned out to what we had imagine. During January, I was wondering myself how am I going to survive here without parents??? And now here I am, in my chalet blogging. This experience really changed me alot. Let see:-
1) I can live without my parents although I still go back once a fortnight.
2) I am independent as in I do my own laundry, make my own bed and clean up the whole chalet.
3) I am more discipline as in I study daily basis and no last minute work, let alone General Studies though.
4) I am more active in cocurricular activities as in I help in many events.
5) I exercise now. I REALLY DO EXERCISE NOW!!!!!
Last but not least, I learn that family is really important in one's life.
So, I am closing the first chapter of my life in KYUEM for now.
So long, Farewell peeps...
This week marks the end of my first semester in KYUEM, and goodbyes for my friends who had already or going to leave this college.
Firstly, there's my dear friend Anju. She got herself a JPA scholarship to study medicine in overseas which I am very proud of her, yet she would have to do her foundation in Monash University. She came back this Thursday to say goodbye with us. This event took place in my chalet. We chat for awhile, take pictures and finally her parents keep calling her and that marks the end of the time she spent in KYUEM. Each of us, the girls, hug her and bid her farewell. We sent her to her car and wave goodbye as she step her foot out of the college. Although it's just a mere 6 months period, yet I felt grief when she really left us. Gone. Not coming back here. She is really a special friend of mine and we share secrets which we swear we won't tell anyone. Now, she's gone. I had lost someone who I can share secret with here.
Secondly, there's Azri and Syazwan. Both of them got Petronas Scholarship and will be going to Taylors. I am not very close to them but being in the same batch, we do see each other often. Especially Azri, as we are in the same group during induction. Azri left us at Wednesday which I had missed the farewell party because I did not know they had changed the time and NOBODY even told me about that! I am so sorry, Azri!! As for Syazwan, we had his farewell yesterday and that time, Liyana also told that she would be leaving our batch as she got scholarship. Well, our batch sure is getting smaller and smaller, eh....
Last but not least, Ban Long. He will be graduating this semester. His Korean hairstyle won't be seen hanging around college anymore and we won't get to bump into him during mealtime or kiasuing time. He's a very unique friend, I would say. I can't exactly put it in words but yeah, he's someone that you won't get to meet everyday. Me and Dal would not have a model to judge whether we are MIA( Missing In Action) or not because the king of MIA would not be around anymore.
Anju, I would really miss you and have a good life in Monash!
Azri, Syazwan and Liyana, our batch would not be the same without you guys and good luck in your future undertakings.
Ban Long, take care and hope you will release an album someday in near future!:P
Firstly, there's my dear friend Anju. She got herself a JPA scholarship to study medicine in overseas which I am very proud of her, yet she would have to do her foundation in Monash University. She came back this Thursday to say goodbye with us. This event took place in my chalet. We chat for awhile, take pictures and finally her parents keep calling her and that marks the end of the time she spent in KYUEM. Each of us, the girls, hug her and bid her farewell. We sent her to her car and wave goodbye as she step her foot out of the college. Although it's just a mere 6 months period, yet I felt grief when she really left us. Gone. Not coming back here. She is really a special friend of mine and we share secrets which we swear we won't tell anyone. Now, she's gone. I had lost someone who I can share secret with here.
Secondly, there's Azri and Syazwan. Both of them got Petronas Scholarship and will be going to Taylors. I am not very close to them but being in the same batch, we do see each other often. Especially Azri, as we are in the same group during induction. Azri left us at Wednesday which I had missed the farewell party because I did not know they had changed the time and NOBODY even told me about that! I am so sorry, Azri!! As for Syazwan, we had his farewell yesterday and that time, Liyana also told that she would be leaving our batch as she got scholarship. Well, our batch sure is getting smaller and smaller, eh....
Last but not least, Ban Long. He will be graduating this semester. His Korean hairstyle won't be seen hanging around college anymore and we won't get to bump into him during mealtime or kiasuing time. He's a very unique friend, I would say. I can't exactly put it in words but yeah, he's someone that you won't get to meet everyday. Me and Dal would not have a model to judge whether we are MIA( Missing In Action) or not because the king of MIA would not be around anymore.
Anju, I would really miss you and have a good life in Monash!
Azri, Syazwan and Liyana, our batch would not be the same without you guys and good luck in your future undertakings.
Ban Long, take care and hope you will release an album someday in near future!:P
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Paranormal, unexplainable things
Do you believe in spirits? I am pretty sure most people will say yes, though minority like my dad do exist where they say there is no such thing as ghost in this world. For example, it is not proven by scientific researches and ghostbusters always come back empty-handed. The truth is, there are always something which cannot be explained or proven. In other words, paranormal stuff. UFO, Martians, Vampires... Who invented these things?? No one. It is being passed down generations by generations that these things are true.
As I creep to my adulthood, I starts to think maybe paranormal things really don't exist and they are just mere myths and stories. Yet, my sister's experience changed my thoughts. Last weekend, I went back and my sister just came back from a 3 days 2 nights camp in Taman Malaysia in my hometown. It is a mini size jungle with chalets and few show aboriginal houses and that place is really nice to go for a walk. Not alone, of course. Yet, you will never know what lies underneath those shady trees and abandoned houses, especially at night.
My sister's camp had night hunt every night and it is not the regular night hunt but sort of a ghostbusting night hunt. They divided them into groups of seven and give each group leader a candle and 3 matches. They have to walk around the whole area of Taman Malaysia at 12am, are the committee crazy or just plain dumb? Oh well, my sister's group start walking(she was the 6th of the 7 people) and suddenly she felt the boy behind her was cold. They hold hands when walking and the committee warn them not to let go each other no matter what happens, obvious enough?? Anyway, the boy's hand was as cold as ice in an instance and my sister felt something was wrong, so she signal the leader to start counting the group members by saying your number out loud.1..2...3...4..5..6........ No seven.*gasp* As that guy did not answer, my sister began to have goosebump. She said the code of their camp, if he answer the real code means he is still him; If he did not answer or saying the same thing as my sister, then*ahem* "he" is something else. And... He did not answer my sister! Ok!! If I was her, I would have just fainted right on that spot!! The committee who was following them notice something was wrong and start swinging the joysticks around that boy. And the temperature returned immediately! Wierd, right??
That was not the end of it. After that, they reached a dead end and have to make a U-turn. My sister felt something was there but she doesn't dare to look at it. When they are turning, there it is, standing there and looking at the group of kids. My sister saw it and she noticed the boy behind her saw it as well, as he was squeezing my sister's hand like there's no tomorrow. Unfortunately, my sister doesn't want to tell me what she saw, but I think it is better to remain it a secret. She told me it is nothing like what we pictured or seen in movies. It doesn't look like human.
After the night hunt, the committee decided to pray for the ghosts and began to lighten the joysticks. Gusts of wind blew from nothing and rushed down to the direction of joysticks. The joysticks are burnt faster than normal do. All the little kids of form 1 cried when they saw what happened. Well, you can't possibly blame them 'cause I would cry if I were them. Then, the ex-committee began playing hide and seek at 2am as they say only 2am the ghosts will come out. Are they insane or just plain stupid??? Who would want to see those things??? One of my friend, yes, same age as me, hide behind a tree. It took them 2 hours to find him, the wierd thing is that he said he can see them looking for him and he even called out the committee. Nobody saw him and they are 100% certain that the spirits had hide him and he became "invisible". I don't believee it initially but my mum said it's true because she experienced it herself back when she was a schoolgirl.
After what had happened to her, it makes me think twice of going to jungle or camping. These things really do exist and no kidding, we can't see them but who knows, they are everywhere. So, no jungle for me from now!
As I creep to my adulthood, I starts to think maybe paranormal things really don't exist and they are just mere myths and stories. Yet, my sister's experience changed my thoughts. Last weekend, I went back and my sister just came back from a 3 days 2 nights camp in Taman Malaysia in my hometown. It is a mini size jungle with chalets and few show aboriginal houses and that place is really nice to go for a walk. Not alone, of course. Yet, you will never know what lies underneath those shady trees and abandoned houses, especially at night.
My sister's camp had night hunt every night and it is not the regular night hunt but sort of a ghostbusting night hunt. They divided them into groups of seven and give each group leader a candle and 3 matches. They have to walk around the whole area of Taman Malaysia at 12am, are the committee crazy or just plain dumb? Oh well, my sister's group start walking(she was the 6th of the 7 people) and suddenly she felt the boy behind her was cold. They hold hands when walking and the committee warn them not to let go each other no matter what happens, obvious enough?? Anyway, the boy's hand was as cold as ice in an instance and my sister felt something was wrong, so she signal the leader to start counting the group members by saying your number out loud.1..2...3...4..5..6........ No seven.*gasp* As that guy did not answer, my sister began to have goosebump. She said the code of their camp, if he answer the real code means he is still him; If he did not answer or saying the same thing as my sister, then*ahem* "he" is something else. And... He did not answer my sister! Ok!! If I was her, I would have just fainted right on that spot!! The committee who was following them notice something was wrong and start swinging the joysticks around that boy. And the temperature returned immediately! Wierd, right??
That was not the end of it. After that, they reached a dead end and have to make a U-turn. My sister felt something was there but she doesn't dare to look at it. When they are turning, there it is, standing there and looking at the group of kids. My sister saw it and she noticed the boy behind her saw it as well, as he was squeezing my sister's hand like there's no tomorrow. Unfortunately, my sister doesn't want to tell me what she saw, but I think it is better to remain it a secret. She told me it is nothing like what we pictured or seen in movies. It doesn't look like human.
After the night hunt, the committee decided to pray for the ghosts and began to lighten the joysticks. Gusts of wind blew from nothing and rushed down to the direction of joysticks. The joysticks are burnt faster than normal do. All the little kids of form 1 cried when they saw what happened. Well, you can't possibly blame them 'cause I would cry if I were them. Then, the ex-committee began playing hide and seek at 2am as they say only 2am the ghosts will come out. Are they insane or just plain stupid??? Who would want to see those things??? One of my friend, yes, same age as me, hide behind a tree. It took them 2 hours to find him, the wierd thing is that he said he can see them looking for him and he even called out the committee. Nobody saw him and they are 100% certain that the spirits had hide him and he became "invisible". I don't believee it initially but my mum said it's true because she experienced it herself back when she was a schoolgirl.
After what had happened to her, it makes me think twice of going to jungle or camping. These things really do exist and no kidding, we can't see them but who knows, they are everywhere. So, no jungle for me from now!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
The angels and demons
Angels, the good ones, the messenger of God, the kind hearted ones...
Demons, the bad ones, the messenger from Hell, the evil ones....
Everybody knows that, right? But who decided who are the angels and who are the demons? Humans?? Well, yeah! Yet, who are we to decide? Not even a person in this world are born bad. There is no such thing as innate in good and bad. It is the nurture or the situation that force someone to become bad. Take a government of a country for instance, they are the ones that supposed to protect the citizens' welfare and healthcare, yet more than 5 countries governments are corrupted. All they care is the money they are making out of unfinished projects or for finished project, they used more money than they should have used. They should have been angels yet they are more like demons in our world. This so-called angels are the real devils.
On the other end, the "devils" are the poor citizens who doesn't have enough money because the government had drained their income through income tax, tax, tax.. In the end, they had to snatch from other people because they had families to feed. The devils of this society have a reason for their action. I am not biased towards these criminals but this is the truth.
So, who is the real angels and demons? Think yourself.
Demons, the bad ones, the messenger from Hell, the evil ones....
Everybody knows that, right? But who decided who are the angels and who are the demons? Humans?? Well, yeah! Yet, who are we to decide? Not even a person in this world are born bad. There is no such thing as innate in good and bad. It is the nurture or the situation that force someone to become bad. Take a government of a country for instance, they are the ones that supposed to protect the citizens' welfare and healthcare, yet more than 5 countries governments are corrupted. All they care is the money they are making out of unfinished projects or for finished project, they used more money than they should have used. They should have been angels yet they are more like demons in our world. This so-called angels are the real devils.
On the other end, the "devils" are the poor citizens who doesn't have enough money because the government had drained their income through income tax, tax, tax.. In the end, they had to snatch from other people because they had families to feed. The devils of this society have a reason for their action. I am not biased towards these criminals but this is the truth.
So, who is the real angels and demons? Think yourself.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
May, The month of misery.
They say May is the month of joy, they say May is the month of marriage. But for me, May is always a month that I tend to dislike. The simple reason is that, every year, those worst things will happen to me this very month. I don't know what did I do in my past life on this particular month but everything just went wrong this month!!
How do I begin? Let see.. This month, I found out that I am forced to go Ecotrip in June 21st. Other than that, I need to do a job attachment in June for my universities applications. Worst still, I thought I will be doing it with Pharmaniaga, BUT today I found out there's problems and I can't proceed with my plans. Now, I need to get in touch with local hospitals or pharmacy for my job attachments. Then, even worse, I had my chemistry semester exam yesterday which is 2 1/2 hours, consisting of 2 papers. Oh My Gosh!! The moment I stepped out of the lecture hall, I knew I had flunked it!! It's not what I had expected. I had done past year papers but turns out the past year papers are different board! The past year paper is OCR board whereas the semester test papers are Cambridge!! I can't believe it!! Anyway, I told my mum and she said now I had got the taste of how the real A-level is like, I can know how to tackle it.
Today, we had a meeting where we are told we had to move into different chalets after the semester break. I am so comfortable with my chalet and it is near the academic blocks!! Why?? Apparently, we had to move into respective house village so that our housemaster can monitor us! Makes no sense!! We are 18 years old and even though they group the girls together, what about the boys??
Hah.. I am so stressed out!! But now, after talking about it I've feel better. I won't be beaten by changes and disappointment!! I am strong!! I am unbeatable by things like this!! Yeah!!
No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are, raise your sights and see possibilities-always see them, for they are always there.
How do I begin? Let see.. This month, I found out that I am forced to go Ecotrip in June 21st. Other than that, I need to do a job attachment in June for my universities applications. Worst still, I thought I will be doing it with Pharmaniaga, BUT today I found out there's problems and I can't proceed with my plans. Now, I need to get in touch with local hospitals or pharmacy for my job attachments. Then, even worse, I had my chemistry semester exam yesterday which is 2 1/2 hours, consisting of 2 papers. Oh My Gosh!! The moment I stepped out of the lecture hall, I knew I had flunked it!! It's not what I had expected. I had done past year papers but turns out the past year papers are different board! The past year paper is OCR board whereas the semester test papers are Cambridge!! I can't believe it!! Anyway, I told my mum and she said now I had got the taste of how the real A-level is like, I can know how to tackle it.
Today, we had a meeting where we are told we had to move into different chalets after the semester break. I am so comfortable with my chalet and it is near the academic blocks!! Why?? Apparently, we had to move into respective house village so that our housemaster can monitor us! Makes no sense!! We are 18 years old and even though they group the girls together, what about the boys??
Hah.. I am so stressed out!! But now, after talking about it I've feel better. I won't be beaten by changes and disappointment!! I am strong!! I am unbeatable by things like this!! Yeah!!
No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are, raise your sights and see possibilities-always see them, for they are always there.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Eco-trip?!
Life is complicated, isn't it?? Full of so many decisions to make by yourself, not having anyone to help you decide as you grow up. The thing is that, this is life and although you hate it, it will keeps going on and on.
I learnt it this year, actually I learnt so many things that I am not exposed to this year. The simple reason is, I am not staying at home anymore. Mum and Dad cannot make decisions for me anymore. If I decided to not go to classes, nobody will lecture me anymore and nobody cares. Sadly, this is what grown up life gonna be like. You are on your own. The decisions that I have to make can seriously affect my everday life, believe me or not. Ranging from whether or not to go for meals at our very own Dining Hall to going ecotrip, I can spend hours to weeks trying my very best to decide. The whole thing seems simple but it's not. I am dead serious. Sometimes i really feel like running away from all of this. Yeah, it's irresponsible and I admit I am still a child. How can you expect someone to just grow up over few months of staying independently?
Everyday, I will be having the same problem, deciding... deciding... deciding... Today, I decided to tell the teacher in charge that I will not be going to Ecotrip, which is in Perlis State Park and 400km+from our very own Lembah Beringin. I gathered my courage and spoke to her. Then, she asked for my reason of not going and said it will be very useful for our Biology Syllabus. I gave reasons like job attachment and transport problems which are true because we will be coming back on a weekday and very hectic for my dad to come and pick me up as he is working. Then, she keeps trying to convince me and finally, I agreed to go. Huh??? Wierd, right?? The truth is that, I can't stand people convincing me. I am a very soft-hearted person and if you keep convincing me, I will naturally agree. Well, this will only work if it is not something which is very very important to me. I have my limits in doing things and if that particular matter is off-limit, I will not agree no matter what.
Anyway, I came out and I feel like slapping myself on my head!!! Argh!!! I should have said no just now because that was what I planned to do, isn't it? Now, I got no choice but to go to that faraway trip.It might be fun but I had never stayed in jungles before. Okay, I know I am studying in some sort of jungle area but they have facilities here, individual rooms and bathrooms. I sure hope Perlis State Park have private bathrooms because if it doesn't, they will have some hygeine problems with me. We are staying there for 4 days and 3 nights. For me, it is a very long time. We will depart from college at Sunday, 21stof June,7pm and will be coming back 24th of June, I think. I will only got to go home at maybe 5pm. It's the semester break and I have to put up with such a bummer!!!
Phew, got that one out of my mind already. Hmm.... Wait a minute, it is still in there. I am now planning how to escape from this trip!
I learnt it this year, actually I learnt so many things that I am not exposed to this year. The simple reason is, I am not staying at home anymore. Mum and Dad cannot make decisions for me anymore. If I decided to not go to classes, nobody will lecture me anymore and nobody cares. Sadly, this is what grown up life gonna be like. You are on your own. The decisions that I have to make can seriously affect my everday life, believe me or not. Ranging from whether or not to go for meals at our very own Dining Hall to going ecotrip, I can spend hours to weeks trying my very best to decide. The whole thing seems simple but it's not. I am dead serious. Sometimes i really feel like running away from all of this. Yeah, it's irresponsible and I admit I am still a child. How can you expect someone to just grow up over few months of staying independently?
Everyday, I will be having the same problem, deciding... deciding... deciding... Today, I decided to tell the teacher in charge that I will not be going to Ecotrip, which is in Perlis State Park and 400km+from our very own Lembah Beringin. I gathered my courage and spoke to her. Then, she asked for my reason of not going and said it will be very useful for our Biology Syllabus. I gave reasons like job attachment and transport problems which are true because we will be coming back on a weekday and very hectic for my dad to come and pick me up as he is working. Then, she keeps trying to convince me and finally, I agreed to go. Huh??? Wierd, right?? The truth is that, I can't stand people convincing me. I am a very soft-hearted person and if you keep convincing me, I will naturally agree. Well, this will only work if it is not something which is very very important to me. I have my limits in doing things and if that particular matter is off-limit, I will not agree no matter what.
Anyway, I came out and I feel like slapping myself on my head!!! Argh!!! I should have said no just now because that was what I planned to do, isn't it? Now, I got no choice but to go to that faraway trip.It might be fun but I had never stayed in jungles before. Okay, I know I am studying in some sort of jungle area but they have facilities here, individual rooms and bathrooms. I sure hope Perlis State Park have private bathrooms because if it doesn't, they will have some hygeine problems with me. We are staying there for 4 days and 3 nights. For me, it is a very long time. We will depart from college at Sunday, 21stof June,7pm and will be coming back 24th of June, I think. I will only got to go home at maybe 5pm. It's the semester break and I have to put up with such a bummer!!!
Phew, got that one out of my mind already. Hmm.... Wait a minute, it is still in there. I am now planning how to escape from this trip!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
What goes around, Comes around?!
Recently, I have done a moral presentation on Taoism, it caught my attention of one of their beliefs.. Yes.. I am not a Taoist! Ok, back to the main topic.
There's this Wu Wei belief. They believe that what you have done to other people, will affect you back. In other words, Karma.. I always believe that how much effort you have put in, how much you are going to get in the end. BUT!!! Not in this case. For my semester exam, I did not do badly but it is not what I expected. I studied 6 hours a day and I do my studies constantly, NO LAST MINUTE WORK!!! And yet, my result.....
When I get back my first paper, which is Mathematics, I got an A.. Happy, of course.. Then, for Biology paper 1 I got an A too! Yippee!!!! The next day, I got back my psychology paper, which turns out to be an A.. Then comes the downhill...
My Biology paper 2 and paper 3 is horrible.. And because of that, I got a C for my semester!! Malaysian study, Oh Gosh!! I failed!!!! I got 14/30 which means I will pass if I get one more mark!!! Fortunately, I passed my Moral Studies. It's not like I did not study Malaysian Study, believe me.. I started reading few days before my exam.. And for Biology, I always revise and revise. When I know what I got, I was devastated and feel like vomitting!!
That's why I am so emo this week. Not because people trigger me, but rather I am having the SECOND WORST week in KYUEM. Anyway, I told my parents and I think they did not blame me but still, I felt guilty for doing badly after all they had paid to send me here. Well, I guess I just have to do well next time. I CAN DO IT!!!!
To all who had done well, be proud of yourself and continue your effort!
There's this Wu Wei belief. They believe that what you have done to other people, will affect you back. In other words, Karma.. I always believe that how much effort you have put in, how much you are going to get in the end. BUT!!! Not in this case. For my semester exam, I did not do badly but it is not what I expected. I studied 6 hours a day and I do my studies constantly, NO LAST MINUTE WORK!!! And yet, my result.....
When I get back my first paper, which is Mathematics, I got an A.. Happy, of course.. Then, for Biology paper 1 I got an A too! Yippee!!!! The next day, I got back my psychology paper, which turns out to be an A.. Then comes the downhill...
My Biology paper 2 and paper 3 is horrible.. And because of that, I got a C for my semester!! Malaysian study, Oh Gosh!! I failed!!!! I got 14/30 which means I will pass if I get one more mark!!! Fortunately, I passed my Moral Studies. It's not like I did not study Malaysian Study, believe me.. I started reading few days before my exam.. And for Biology, I always revise and revise. When I know what I got, I was devastated and feel like vomitting!!
That's why I am so emo this week. Not because people trigger me, but rather I am having the SECOND WORST week in KYUEM. Anyway, I told my parents and I think they did not blame me but still, I felt guilty for doing badly after all they had paid to send me here. Well, I guess I just have to do well next time. I CAN DO IT!!!!
To all who had done well, be proud of yourself and continue your effort!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Looking Back
It's been about half a year I leave my secondary school. Recently, From 6 had started and most of my peers are going to Form 6. Yet, some went for college, like me.
I heard from my best Indian guy friend who is in Perak now to go University Tunku Abdul Rahman that one of my other best guy friend went to Tafe college and is currently doing Accounting. It caught me thinking that Wow!! I guess we are all going separate ways, huh?? In a glimpse, we will all be working in society, having our busy life.
Having nostalgia of my secondary school life, I still remember the times we spent laughing at silly jokes to kill time, hanging around together and spending most of our time together. Now, it seem so long ago. I wonder we would ever had the time to do it again. We all know that when we start going to new school, we make new friends and tends to forget the old ones. When I told Dal, she said it all seem so fake as we are so good that time and now we don't even have the time to contact each other. Yes, I agree with that..
These best friends are so hard to sustain because we move on in life. So, we can only keep our fingers cross that the friends I have now will last my lifetime.
I heard from my best Indian guy friend who is in Perak now to go University Tunku Abdul Rahman that one of my other best guy friend went to Tafe college and is currently doing Accounting. It caught me thinking that Wow!! I guess we are all going separate ways, huh?? In a glimpse, we will all be working in society, having our busy life.
Having nostalgia of my secondary school life, I still remember the times we spent laughing at silly jokes to kill time, hanging around together and spending most of our time together. Now, it seem so long ago. I wonder we would ever had the time to do it again. We all know that when we start going to new school, we make new friends and tends to forget the old ones. When I told Dal, she said it all seem so fake as we are so good that time and now we don't even have the time to contact each other. Yes, I agree with that..
These best friends are so hard to sustain because we move on in life. So, we can only keep our fingers cross that the friends I have now will last my lifetime.
Monday, April 20, 2009
And D-day finally arrive..
We had been preparing for almost 3 weeks! Everyday, I am so busy until I don't even have time to take a deep breath. I am sure that everyone feel the same way as I do. If you have read my last post, then you will know how it is.
Anyway, finally 20/4/2009 had arrived!
Previous day I just came back from my house trip at Cherating, then I went straight for dance practice at 10pm which is until 11pm. I was so exhausted that I slept without dreaming. Then, in the wee hours, Dna called to ask me to go practice my fan dance again, I think about 6.30am. I had such a headache that I can't even open my eyes. So, sorry that I can't make it. At 5pm, straight after my Biology practical, I went to the Great Hall to set up the decoration. Turns out that we are lacking so many stuffs, so I just have my dance rehearsal until 6.50pm. I rushed back to take a quick bath, eat my dinner as quickly as possible, rushed back to the Great Hall AGAIN! Decoration time!!
Firstly I had to cellophane the whole drawing to the cloth. Then, the troubles start! We tried to pin the art onto the curtain using pins(thumbtacks). Yet, it is impossible to do so. Few seniors are very helpful, they helped me to think about the ways to pin that big cloth up. Finally, thanks to Wen Zhen, we successfully cellophane the whole cloth onto tables that had been put layers by layers. Without noticing, our headmaster had arrived! Argh!! Run!!
I quickly run to backstage to get ready for our Kung Fu Fan dance and Kung Fu Panda Dance. I swear that I am so anxious that time, because this is the 'tick' of my life. I had never ever dance since 11 years old!! Me and Shawn went out from the other side while Naddy, Kaiye and Deena come from one side. It is so dark and when the music started, I can hear Dal screaming!! The whole dancing session is really fun. I actually enjoyed it very much. Hmm.. Guess all the hard work paid off. After our turn, The boys had their nan chak. Then booths started and I have to go to my mahjong booth, no gambling though..
This is an experience of a lifetime. Thinking of it now, I wish it didn't end so fast.. Haha..
Anyway, finally 20/4/2009 had arrived!
Previous day I just came back from my house trip at Cherating, then I went straight for dance practice at 10pm which is until 11pm. I was so exhausted that I slept without dreaming. Then, in the wee hours, Dna called to ask me to go practice my fan dance again, I think about 6.30am. I had such a headache that I can't even open my eyes. So, sorry that I can't make it. At 5pm, straight after my Biology practical, I went to the Great Hall to set up the decoration. Turns out that we are lacking so many stuffs, so I just have my dance rehearsal until 6.50pm. I rushed back to take a quick bath, eat my dinner as quickly as possible, rushed back to the Great Hall AGAIN! Decoration time!!
Firstly I had to cellophane the whole drawing to the cloth. Then, the troubles start! We tried to pin the art onto the curtain using pins(thumbtacks). Yet, it is impossible to do so. Few seniors are very helpful, they helped me to think about the ways to pin that big cloth up. Finally, thanks to Wen Zhen, we successfully cellophane the whole cloth onto tables that had been put layers by layers. Without noticing, our headmaster had arrived! Argh!! Run!!
I quickly run to backstage to get ready for our Kung Fu Fan dance and Kung Fu Panda Dance. I swear that I am so anxious that time, because this is the 'tick' of my life. I had never ever dance since 11 years old!! Me and Shawn went out from the other side while Naddy, Kaiye and Deena come from one side. It is so dark and when the music started, I can hear Dal screaming!! The whole dancing session is really fun. I actually enjoyed it very much. Hmm.. Guess all the hard work paid off. After our turn, The boys had their nan chak. Then booths started and I have to go to my mahjong booth, no gambling though..
This is an experience of a lifetime. Thinking of it now, I wish it didn't end so fast.. Haha..
Everybody say Panda!!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Hmm.. Real college life??
This might be the longest week I have since I arrived at KYUEM. Not that I complain about it because I volunteer to do the work.
My schedule had been very tight compared to last week. Last week is like a honeymoon because seniors are having their trials so we have quite a number of free blocks. This week, however, is rather different. I have to wake up at 7.20am, as usual, and go breakfast at 7.50am as usual. Then, classes will start. After all the hustle and bustle of the day, my day is not finish after 4.15pm! Dance practice for Chinese Cultural Night which is on 20th of April will be either 5pm or 5.30pm. Like all Malaysian, when it says it is 5pm, doesn't mean it start at 5pm.:P *Forgive me for saying that, Kaiye!!* The dance will normally end at 6.50pm. I have to rush back to my chalet to bath and go have my dinner. At 7.30pm, Painting session for the CCC banner will start. Again, it won't start on time. Malaysia Boleh!! it will end at 9pm, which means I have 1 hour for myself to study before I run for dance practice again at 10pm. The dance will end when guards hush us to go back to our chalets and apartment. I will be so exhausted when I reach back and all I want to do is to sleep! So, that's a typical day for this week.
P.S: I am still tired when I am typing this post, but luckily we didn't have dance practice tonight!
My schedule had been very tight compared to last week. Last week is like a honeymoon because seniors are having their trials so we have quite a number of free blocks. This week, however, is rather different. I have to wake up at 7.20am, as usual, and go breakfast at 7.50am as usual. Then, classes will start. After all the hustle and bustle of the day, my day is not finish after 4.15pm! Dance practice for Chinese Cultural Night which is on 20th of April will be either 5pm or 5.30pm. Like all Malaysian, when it says it is 5pm, doesn't mean it start at 5pm.:P *Forgive me for saying that, Kaiye!!* The dance will normally end at 6.50pm. I have to rush back to my chalet to bath and go have my dinner. At 7.30pm, Painting session for the CCC banner will start. Again, it won't start on time. Malaysia Boleh!! it will end at 9pm, which means I have 1 hour for myself to study before I run for dance practice again at 10pm. The dance will end when guards hush us to go back to our chalets and apartment. I will be so exhausted when I reach back and all I want to do is to sleep! So, that's a typical day for this week.
P.S: I am still tired when I am typing this post, but luckily we didn't have dance practice tonight!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Blackout
I am sure every one of us experience blackout before. In our house, hostel, hotel(seldom) and maybe school or during classes. The thing is that, during blackout, most of us will just moaning and complaining about how hot it is, can't do our own work, can't go to the bathroom( well in my case, that is, as I am afraid of darkness). Yet, blackout is actually an opportunity for us to embrace Mother Nature.
Why??
When the air conditioner stop running, the fan stop spinning, the light went off... Our senses are more alert than they usually are. As it is so quiet, we can hear every single raindrop( if it is raining), we can hear every wind that pass by, we can see how bright the sky can be, filling with zillions of stars! It is though we are embrace by Mother Nature..
So, the next time that you are experiencing a blackout, think of it this way. Therefore, you won't have to be frustrated.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Home
"Another summer day,
Has come and gone away,
In Paris and Rome,
But I wanna go home.."
This lyric adapted by Michael Buble song, "Home" sings the heart of me..
When I am still staying in my house, I can't wait to get out and have freedom. Now, I just want to stay there forever as I know how important it is to me. How to define a home? What exactly is a place called home?? Is it a place to stay?
For me, a place where my whole family are is what I call a home, regardless how the place can be. I had learnt how comfortable a home can be, now that I am not staying there often anymore. It is though I had something missing in my heart. Such as a nearly complete jigsaw puzzle just missing a piece. That piece can make the whole puzzle incomplete. I had this feeling even though I am living somewhere better or maybe having a better life, without a real home, I don't feel my life is complete. Therefore, for those who are still in their homes, appreciate whoever is staying inside with you.
What is a home?
A place to sleep?
A place to rest?
Or a place where you have someone waiting for you to come back?
Hmm..
Waking up and seeing my siblings sleeping soundly beside me,
Finding my dad reading newspaper in the living room,
Seeing mum eating breakfast asking me to join her,
Hearing my siblings arguing over really silly stuff,
Helping my mum to do laundry,
Eating dinner with my whole family,
Talking about our day respectively...
Ahah!
I found it!
I know it!
This is a place I called HOME..
Has come and gone away,
In Paris and Rome,
But I wanna go home.."
This lyric adapted by Michael Buble song, "Home" sings the heart of me..
When I am still staying in my house, I can't wait to get out and have freedom. Now, I just want to stay there forever as I know how important it is to me. How to define a home? What exactly is a place called home?? Is it a place to stay?
For me, a place where my whole family are is what I call a home, regardless how the place can be. I had learnt how comfortable a home can be, now that I am not staying there often anymore. It is though I had something missing in my heart. Such as a nearly complete jigsaw puzzle just missing a piece. That piece can make the whole puzzle incomplete. I had this feeling even though I am living somewhere better or maybe having a better life, without a real home, I don't feel my life is complete. Therefore, for those who are still in their homes, appreciate whoever is staying inside with you.
What is a home?
A place to sleep?
A place to rest?
Or a place where you have someone waiting for you to come back?
Hmm..
Waking up and seeing my siblings sleeping soundly beside me,
Finding my dad reading newspaper in the living room,
Seeing mum eating breakfast asking me to join her,
Hearing my siblings arguing over really silly stuff,
Helping my mum to do laundry,
Eating dinner with my whole family,
Talking about our day respectively...
Ahah!
I found it!
I know it!
This is a place I called HOME..
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Lies..
You say you will give me the entire world,
You say you will give me every star that I can see,
You told me you will pluck every star and make a ring for me,
You told me that there are no other girls that caught your attention.
That was what you told me..
Lies.. Lies.. Lies..
You say you love my baking,
You say you love my eyes,
Especially when I look into yours,
You say that no matter what I do,
You will be there for me.
That was what you told me..
Lies.. Lies.. Lies..
I was naive to believe,
In everything you say to me.
I was foolish to hear,
Every sort of lies that you told me.
I was in La-La Land,
To realize that you are just playing with my feeling.
Well,
Now I have waken up!
When I saw your cold shoulder,
You turn away from me.
No longer be by my side,
As you only want something from me.
I was no fool,
Because I notice that.
You may think you can fool me with those flowery words,
BUT!
Too bad, you are wrong!
You are the kind of guy,
The kind of guy that I hate most,
When you get something already,
You will throw that something aside.
I hate you!
I put my feelings into you,
Sometimes even sacrifice my time,
Just to be with you.
Yet,
You treat me like rubbish!
This is what I told you!
I don't regret dumping you,
As now I think it is a wise thing to do.
You release me!
Phew!
Luckily I did not miss anything,
I did not lose anything.
Unlike you!
Hah!
You lose everything!
And I still don't regret doing so!
As by the end of the day,
You know the reason why I dumped you,
Because you are too psycho for me..
You say you will give me every star that I can see,
You told me you will pluck every star and make a ring for me,
You told me that there are no other girls that caught your attention.
That was what you told me..
Lies.. Lies.. Lies..
You say you love my baking,
You say you love my eyes,
Especially when I look into yours,
You say that no matter what I do,
You will be there for me.
That was what you told me..
Lies.. Lies.. Lies..
I was naive to believe,
In everything you say to me.
I was foolish to hear,
Every sort of lies that you told me.
I was in La-La Land,
To realize that you are just playing with my feeling.
Well,
Now I have waken up!
When I saw your cold shoulder,
You turn away from me.
No longer be by my side,
As you only want something from me.
I was no fool,
Because I notice that.
You may think you can fool me with those flowery words,
BUT!
Too bad, you are wrong!
You are the kind of guy,
The kind of guy that I hate most,
When you get something already,
You will throw that something aside.
I hate you!
I put my feelings into you,
Sometimes even sacrifice my time,
Just to be with you.
Yet,
You treat me like rubbish!
This is what I told you!
I don't regret dumping you,
As now I think it is a wise thing to do.
You release me!
Phew!
Luckily I did not miss anything,
I did not lose anything.
Unlike you!
Hah!
You lose everything!
And I still don't regret doing so!
As by the end of the day,
You know the reason why I dumped you,
Because you are too psycho for me..
Friday, March 20, 2009
Misery
Every night,
I dreamt the same dream.
You,
Are always there.
So close yet so far away,
You are something that I can't ever reach.
So close yet so far away,
There you are,
Always appear with her.
I know,
That it is impossible.
Yet,
I want it to be true.
I want you to smile at me,
Like the way you smile at her.
I want you to look at me,
Like the way you look at her.
I want you to touch me,
Like the way you touch her.
Am I asking for too much?
Am I being greedy?
Am I not good enough for you?
Tell me..
Because of you,
I am dying.
I am fading away.
I am restless.
Please stop being so nice to me,
If you don't feel that way about me.
Because,
You are torturing me.
Please save me from this misery,
As I can't take it anymore.
Kill me quick!
I rather you kill me,
Than watching you with her.
Because it torture me like hell.
Save me by releasing me from this misery!
I dreamt the same dream.
You,
Are always there.
So close yet so far away,
You are something that I can't ever reach.
So close yet so far away,
There you are,
Always appear with her.
I know,
That it is impossible.
Yet,
I want it to be true.
I want you to smile at me,
Like the way you smile at her.
I want you to look at me,
Like the way you look at her.
I want you to touch me,
Like the way you touch her.
Am I asking for too much?
Am I being greedy?
Am I not good enough for you?
Tell me..
Because of you,
I am dying.
I am fading away.
I am restless.
Please stop being so nice to me,
If you don't feel that way about me.
Because,
You are torturing me.
Please save me from this misery,
As I can't take it anymore.
Kill me quick!
I rather you kill me,
Than watching you with her.
Because it torture me like hell.
Save me by releasing me from this misery!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Far Away 遠くに
Yesterday, I took out my dad's long forgotten telescope for stargazing as the sky is filled with numerous stars.
We are so lucky that we got a glimpse of SATURN!!! Although it is so far away, yet we can still see it. This makes me think of something else date back to 2007, I think.
Pluto is officially drop from our solar system to an asteroid. Who are we to decide the fate of Pluto? This "planet" is older than everyone of us in Earth! It existed before any life forms are found in Earth. Why should human have the power to decide Pluto's fate as a planet? Don't you think it is quite unfair for it? Early astronomers had decided to put Pluto as the ninth planet of our solar system then so be it! Why should we change it? Just because it is smaller in size doesn't mean it is an asteroid, plus it has moons that orbit around it. Isn't that obvious??
For Pluto, you will always remain a planet in my heart because you are a planet for thousands of years, and you will always be one~
All Hail Pluto forever!すべてはプルートを永久に呼ぶ!
We are so lucky that we got a glimpse of SATURN!!! Although it is so far away, yet we can still see it. This makes me think of something else date back to 2007, I think.
Pluto is officially drop from our solar system to an asteroid. Who are we to decide the fate of Pluto? This "planet" is older than everyone of us in Earth! It existed before any life forms are found in Earth. Why should human have the power to decide Pluto's fate as a planet? Don't you think it is quite unfair for it? Early astronomers had decided to put Pluto as the ninth planet of our solar system then so be it! Why should we change it? Just because it is smaller in size doesn't mean it is an asteroid, plus it has moons that orbit around it. Isn't that obvious??
For Pluto, you will always remain a planet in my heart because you are a planet for thousands of years, and you will always be one~
All Hail Pluto forever!すべてはプルートを永久に呼ぶ!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
What If?何か。
What if I am Barack Obama?
Because if I am,
I may be able to change the world.
What if I am Angelina Jolie?
Because if I am,
I may be sitting back with the hunkiest man around me.
What if I am Osama bin Laden?
Because if I am,
I may be running away all over the world to save my own life.
What if I am a genius?
Because if I am,
I may be in Oxford or Cambridge now.
What if none of this matter,
Because..
What if there's no tomorrow?
* This is my first poem, so it is very amateur.
Because if I am,
I may be able to change the world.
What if I am Angelina Jolie?
Because if I am,
I may be sitting back with the hunkiest man around me.
What if I am Osama bin Laden?
Because if I am,
I may be running away all over the world to save my own life.
What if I am a genius?
Because if I am,
I may be in Oxford or Cambridge now.
What if none of this matter,
Because..
What if there's no tomorrow?
* This is my first poem, so it is very amateur.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Happy~幸せ~
Yesterday I am so tense up about my SPM..
Today, I am so happy!! I woke up at 6am, as usual, to fetch my siblings to school.. Then, went back to sleep again.. At about 8.47am, I am awake as I need to follow my dad's car to school to GET MY RESULT!! I went to a Dim Sum restaurant for breakfast, BUT I am in no mood for dim sum!! I want to get my result and get back home!! FAST!!
I went to school at about 11am but I only got my result at 12.30pm!! When they announced that we can get our results, we went like bees!!! All of the science stream students went around the teachers to get our results. I manage to squeeze inside but still need to wait for my turn. One of my juniors caught a glimpse at my result but he don't want to tell me!! Make me so scared!! Then, when I saw my result, I am speechless...
All A1 except for Chinese which I got 3B and EST for 2A.. Oh my gosh!!!! WOW!!!! The first thing I do is to call my mum and tell her!! I am so excited!!!
Now, I am still so happy.. And SPEECHLESS!!! Although I am not the top student of my school, they say I got the most A1 in the entire school.. Much of my teachers say it's quite sad that because of my chinese, I can't be one of the top.. But who cares!! I am happy!! :P
Today, I am so happy!! I woke up at 6am, as usual, to fetch my siblings to school.. Then, went back to sleep again.. At about 8.47am, I am awake as I need to follow my dad's car to school to GET MY RESULT!! I went to a Dim Sum restaurant for breakfast, BUT I am in no mood for dim sum!! I want to get my result and get back home!! FAST!!
I went to school at about 11am but I only got my result at 12.30pm!! When they announced that we can get our results, we went like bees!!! All of the science stream students went around the teachers to get our results. I manage to squeeze inside but still need to wait for my turn. One of my juniors caught a glimpse at my result but he don't want to tell me!! Make me so scared!! Then, when I saw my result, I am speechless...
All A1 except for Chinese which I got 3B and EST for 2A.. Oh my gosh!!!! WOW!!!! The first thing I do is to call my mum and tell her!! I am so excited!!!
Now, I am still so happy.. And SPEECHLESS!!! Although I am not the top student of my school, they say I got the most A1 in the entire school.. Much of my teachers say it's quite sad that because of my chinese, I can't be one of the top.. But who cares!! I am happy!! :P
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Boring.. =.=
Before my easter break start, I am so excited that finally my turn for holiday had arrived!! But, I feel like I want to go back to college now.. I miss my friends so much!
I have so much housework to do at home. It's not that my mother force me to do it, but I want to ease her burden, so I decided to make use of myself. I help my dad to fetch my siblings to school as early as 6am!! My day is so tired, not to mention that I did not finish my homeworks!!
Well, what can I say?? This is what I should do as a daughter of this family.. Eldest daughter..
I have so much housework to do at home. It's not that my mother force me to do it, but I want to ease her burden, so I decided to make use of myself. I help my dad to fetch my siblings to school as early as 6am!! My day is so tired, not to mention that I did not finish my homeworks!!
Well, what can I say?? This is what I should do as a daughter of this family.. Eldest daughter..
Monday, March 9, 2009
Accident..
Yesterday when I went to fetch my sisters and brothers from badminton lesson near my housing area, I'm involve in something that I never had before.
I saw a car going from an opposite lane, I thought to myself that this guy must be a foreigner as that lane is supposed to be the opposite direction. But it's none of mybusiness, so I just continue driving. Then, BAM!!!!! That moment, my head is empty and I just whisper 'SHOOT!' to myself. As I am hit in the junction, I can't stop and get down to see what my car had become. So, I decided to pull over after I cross the junction. Luckily, that driver did not run away. When I come down from my car, he kept apologizing and I didn't notice how bad my car was hit until I saw the door of my driver's seat. It was not in shape anymore and the colour had worn off! Wow!
He ask me what he should do, report to police or deal with it on our own. As the car does not belong to me, I told him to give me his phone number and I will call my dad to see how we should handle it. He kept asking whether I was shocked and whether or not I can drive, BUT I think he is more shock than me!
He is quite panic and I can totally see that from his face. I am a very unique person as these serious situation doesn't seem to make me panic. Hmmm... I doubt something must be wrong in my head. Then, I told him my dad will contact him and I decided to move on as my siblings are still waiting for me.
My dad called him yesterday and they meet up today. The repairing of my car is RM450!!! Wow! Though we are quite relieved that this man did not run away after he hit me. So, my dad is still satisfied when he decided to pay for the repairing.
The moral of the story is NEVER EVER get near a car when it is in the opposite lane!
I saw a car going from an opposite lane, I thought to myself that this guy must be a foreigner as that lane is supposed to be the opposite direction. But it's none of mybusiness, so I just continue driving. Then, BAM!!!!! That moment, my head is empty and I just whisper 'SHOOT!' to myself. As I am hit in the junction, I can't stop and get down to see what my car had become. So, I decided to pull over after I cross the junction. Luckily, that driver did not run away. When I come down from my car, he kept apologizing and I didn't notice how bad my car was hit until I saw the door of my driver's seat. It was not in shape anymore and the colour had worn off! Wow!
He ask me what he should do, report to police or deal with it on our own. As the car does not belong to me, I told him to give me his phone number and I will call my dad to see how we should handle it. He kept asking whether I was shocked and whether or not I can drive, BUT I think he is more shock than me!
He is quite panic and I can totally see that from his face. I am a very unique person as these serious situation doesn't seem to make me panic. Hmmm... I doubt something must be wrong in my head. Then, I told him my dad will contact him and I decided to move on as my siblings are still waiting for me.
My dad called him yesterday and they meet up today. The repairing of my car is RM450!!! Wow! Though we are quite relieved that this man did not run away after he hit me. So, my dad is still satisfied when he decided to pay for the repairing.
The moral of the story is NEVER EVER get near a car when it is in the opposite lane!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Just like old times..( Part 2)
Next.. I want to introduce some of them that I see quite often as I have classes with them or not. Amanda is the one who always laugh for no reason and always find herself stuck in the wierdest situation, trust me.. You don't want to know! Shifa is a very clever girl who sit next to me in biology and math.. She is serious with her work and quiet. Jean, on the other hand, likes to sing and I had all my classes with her.. Sadly, she drop psychology and our english class had been reshuffled, so I won't be having the same class as her!! Aishah likes to sing too, and she actually compose her own song that she sing when she want something~ She likes to crash our chalet to find Illiany. Sometimes I even get shocked coz she suddenly sing when the time I'm not aware she is in Illiany's room. Su is a debater, and trust me, you don't want to mess with her. She will hit all the facts by using strong, powerful words at your face. You will be crying for your parents!! haha.. Adibah and Amira are Illiany's friends.. I can always find Adibah doing her laundry outside our chalet and Amira helping us to sweep our floor because she can't stand the dirtiness of our chalet!! Deena is one busy bunny.. She is our special task exco, therefore I seldom see her because she is often running around to run her errands. Losh is a very serious girl who study most of the time! She is so good in her study and I really envy her!! Kaiye is one happy bunny who always crash into people's chalet and play! She is happy go lucky and beautiful, this is the truth!! Sally is one fair girl.. She is quite shy, from what I notice but she is still cute, in her own way! Shar Linn is a scholar just like FY. She is very outgoing and she is not afraid to voice out how she feels!! Wow!! I also know other BN scholar such as Amy, Amalia, Amalina, Ili, Husna,OMG!! I can't remember their names!! Sorry!!! But, you guys are my friends!
Well, for guys.. I often see Iz because I have all my classes with him!! Seriously, and we are in the same house. That make us see each other quite often. Jaren is a guy who likes to piss me off and then have the satisfaction look. But, I think he is my friend. Hong and Sheldon is always seen with Jaren. Hong is a responsible person, hmm.. That's why he deserve to be the coordinator for CCC. Sheldon is unexpectably kinda like Jaren. He put his face as one of the simpson's character!! Hahaha.. Ben is a nice friend because me and Dal can actually introduce him to our plush toys!! And he wants to meet them! Now, that's something we didn't get to see everyday! Shawn is a guy who is very shy. I don't mean he is shy technically, but he gives me a feeling that he is a very shy person. Wei Shen is always seen with Ian. Ian is a sport guy who loves basketball while Wei Shen is very good in calligraphy. I am not very close to them as I don't see them often. This goes to Shen, our special task exco and a few others like syaz, emier, afiq, amani,razlan, arif, iskandar and a few more..
Well, I think that's it.. If you guys have anything to add, feel free to let me know. :)
Well, for guys.. I often see Iz because I have all my classes with him!! Seriously, and we are in the same house. That make us see each other quite often. Jaren is a guy who likes to piss me off and then have the satisfaction look. But, I think he is my friend. Hong and Sheldon is always seen with Jaren. Hong is a responsible person, hmm.. That's why he deserve to be the coordinator for CCC. Sheldon is unexpectably kinda like Jaren. He put his face as one of the simpson's character!! Hahaha.. Ben is a nice friend because me and Dal can actually introduce him to our plush toys!! And he wants to meet them! Now, that's something we didn't get to see everyday! Shawn is a guy who is very shy. I don't mean he is shy technically, but he gives me a feeling that he is a very shy person. Wei Shen is always seen with Ian. Ian is a sport guy who loves basketball while Wei Shen is very good in calligraphy. I am not very close to them as I don't see them often. This goes to Shen, our special task exco and a few others like syaz, emier, afiq, amani,razlan, arif, iskandar and a few more..
Well, I think that's it.. If you guys have anything to add, feel free to let me know. :)
Just like old times..( Part 1)
When I know that I won't be going the same route as most of my secondary peers are, I felt quite sad as I won't be hanging around with them anymore. I even doubt that I will ever find someone that are just as fun to hang around as them.
Now, I realise my worries seem ironic...
I have my new circle of friends who( don't kill me for saying this) are also as crazy as my old friends are!! Some of them are even more crazy than my secondary friends!! Let me introduce a few to you~
Ok.. First we have Dal THE GOTH! Sorry, Dal.. Just saying the truth.. Well, she happens to sleep opposite my room, which she called it "Dal's Highway Hotel". Her regular work includes stealing my chocolate from my room( well you can't blame her because I don't want to lock my room after locking myself out for 2 times!!), sleeping, annoying people, helping me to run away, accompany me wherever I go( so nice of her~) and a few more things like emoiing!! That's how her nickname comes from.
Then, we have FY THE TINKERBELL, who is sleeping next to my room.. Her regular work.. Hmm.. Math, math, math and more math.. Other than that, scaring my chalet mate by saying:"XX, I think I just saw 2 cockroaches went into your room!!" Well, one thing for sure, she can't scare me with bugs because I happen to be the pest control agent in my chalet( kill 1 gigantic cockroach and centipede last week)! Yet, she knows how to scare me with other things. She's very smart for a green eyed tinkerbell.. I love to annoy her with my loving relationship with Geetz and Anju~
My other chalet mate is bony Illiany.. Ok.. Her name seems wierd, but that's what she is... Super skinny!! BUT!! She eat alot! I envy her alot!! She is seldom at home, spending her time in RC or just dating with her girlfriend.. Even if she's in, she spend her time digging history books! So, her regular work includes eating, history,history and more history..
My other pals.. Let see.. Anju~ A very cute girl with huge eyes.. FY say they are scary, but I love her eyes!! Hear that, FY?? Geetz is my other darling.. I seldom see her as we don't have the same class.. BUT, I still love her~~ as much as I love Anju.. And for FY, we are not fake lovers!!
Well, this is only part 1.. I will continue in part 2!
Now, I realise my worries seem ironic...
I have my new circle of friends who( don't kill me for saying this) are also as crazy as my old friends are!! Some of them are even more crazy than my secondary friends!! Let me introduce a few to you~
Ok.. First we have Dal THE GOTH! Sorry, Dal.. Just saying the truth.. Well, she happens to sleep opposite my room, which she called it "Dal's Highway Hotel". Her regular work includes stealing my chocolate from my room( well you can't blame her because I don't want to lock my room after locking myself out for 2 times!!), sleeping, annoying people, helping me to run away, accompany me wherever I go( so nice of her~) and a few more things like emoiing!! That's how her nickname comes from.
Then, we have FY THE TINKERBELL, who is sleeping next to my room.. Her regular work.. Hmm.. Math, math, math and more math.. Other than that, scaring my chalet mate by saying:"XX, I think I just saw 2 cockroaches went into your room!!" Well, one thing for sure, she can't scare me with bugs because I happen to be the pest control agent in my chalet( kill 1 gigantic cockroach and centipede last week)! Yet, she knows how to scare me with other things. She's very smart for a green eyed tinkerbell.. I love to annoy her with my loving relationship with Geetz and Anju~
My other chalet mate is bony Illiany.. Ok.. Her name seems wierd, but that's what she is... Super skinny!! BUT!! She eat alot! I envy her alot!! She is seldom at home, spending her time in RC or just dating with her girlfriend.. Even if she's in, she spend her time digging history books! So, her regular work includes eating, history,history and more history..
My other pals.. Let see.. Anju~ A very cute girl with huge eyes.. FY say they are scary, but I love her eyes!! Hear that, FY?? Geetz is my other darling.. I seldom see her as we don't have the same class.. BUT, I still love her~~ as much as I love Anju.. And for FY, we are not fake lovers!!
Well, this is only part 1.. I will continue in part 2!
First Impression( Tick of my new life)
Ok, ok.. I admit I will be exaggerating when I finish my first post, yet before I come to study in this college, I NEVER EVER leave my home without my parents!!! I am dependent towards my parents.. I don't even went to camp before.. Can you imagine??? That's why living in my college now is a whole new kind of experience for me.. 
*My friends.. Caught them off-guard! Haha..The first time I step into this college, my thought was WHY is this place SO cut out from the community??? No mamak stall, no convenient store, no cars passing by, nothing!!! Just some abandon houses( maybe a few teachers living there), a golf course and my college!! I'm so shocked when I learnt that my dad is going to send me to this place!! Apart from that, I've heard that the people hear are all geniuses who get straight A's!! Me, I NEVER get straight A before.. So, will I survive?
Well, I am still alive now..
The induction week was held the first week we, the batch 11.5 came.. We had games, ice breaking and a few talks.. BUT, I am SO homesick that I did not enjoy myself that particular week.. I spent my time moaning and crying about how much I miss home.. Whereas, my chalet mate, Dal(Goth), had the time of her life.. I did not mix around, making new friends, and I can't even remember their faces, EVEN in my group!!( Which consist of Shen, Dal, Geetha,Amira,Azri,Sheldon, Ben and me) Sometimes, I just hate myself for being such a baby.. After that week, I start my classes, which I had found out a new problem.. I am having classes with geniuses.. I think I am the worst in my class, I don't know what the teachers are teaching, and I have to go RC everyday just to get understand what the teachers had taught. I felt so hopeless that time..
But those time passes.. Now, I am still having difficulties understanding, but I had friends to ask around. I managed to mix with people now!! YEAH!! I find that the students in the college is very friendly.. They smile at you whenever you pass by, and that makes my day happier..( I am quite stupid to think that way, but I do think like that) And I think I am being to live my own life now..
I love my life now. And I think I will enjoy my 18 months stay there!
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