Perhaps Love?

"If you don't love me anymore, I would cut my wrist/ run away from home/ run over by car/ bang myself on the wall (please select one) now!"

Well, my sister, A has been threaten into this situation lately. When she told me, I looked at her and laughed. "You thought what? Making a movie now is it?? Why does the guy need to be so dramatic?" That's always my reply to her. It's kinda true because according to her, the guy likes to watch Hong Kong-based dramas. I am not surprised when he came out with that few AMAZING lines.

I always feel that my high school life had been rather peaceful and drama free, which is very opposite compared to what my sister had experienced the minute she stepped into my high school. She's very different from me. Always the center of attention, smart, cool and of course, pretty. Me on the other hand, is always seen as a bookworm, and insignificant at school, not that I want the attention though.

So, she attracts all kinds of friends, ranging from bookworms to ah beng or ah lian. That makes her daily life at school way more interesting than mine and the dramas she see, well, pretty dramatic at times. There was once she told me about this particular couple where when one of them wanted a break up, the other cut her wrist and ended up in the hospital. Whoa, seriously the government should start banning dramas! And the reason I did not specify the gender is because, well, both of the are the same gender. Another big WHOA!

Well, that's what makes teenagers teenagers. If they are rational, then they should have been called an adult. I am not in shoes to make fun of them, because I have been through that stage before. Thinking love is something so great and beautiful, and the person I am seeing is "The One". Falling out of it is like a big slap of reality! I've learnt and grew from it and I think I have mature from my past. Of course, I couldn't help but to be cynical about certain stuff because that's the plain truth.

For example, fictional novels love the idea of love at first sight. "When I saw him across the coffee table, reading my favorite book. I knew! This is exactly the man I would spend the rest of my life with!" Reality check please!!! There is absolutely NO WAY that would happen! You may think I am a cynic, but I am just being realistic. It just doesn't happen that way!

The thing about fictional novels and Taiwanese dramas( yes, especially Taiwanese dramas) gave this youngsters a fake image of love. They thought whoa... Love... La La land.. Cotton and candy 24/7... Well, sorry to ruin your fake image but that ain't gonna happen!

Yes, of course it feels like La La land and yes, of course it feels happy. BUT, you need to work for it. It doesn't come and swoosh you away without placing you back where you are and then, you realize that you need to put in effort to make things possible.

So, advice for high school kids, it's okay to taste what does it feel like to be in love, well.. Puppy love. Just spare the dying part! Nobody likes the line " Me or death" Okay?

Cheers :)

Turning a new leaf for better

"You should be more optimistic about things! Do you know that if you are so pessimistic you tend to make the things that you fear happen??" This is what I told my friend when she's being so pessimistic about certain things.

However, I am no different. I always looked tough and being all confident about things but deep down, there's a sense of uncertainty. I doubted a few things and it would really affect everything that I have been holding on to ultimately. So, I always tell myself that I am one independent being and shouldn't be attach to things. I dislike clingy people so I shouldn't act like one!

I trust myself and others. So, if anything happens, I have no regrets because it's my own decision that I had made. I should maintain my happy-go-lucky self then!!

Cheers :)

P.S: I am confident enough to say that I am not afraid of what will happen in the future! I think I can conquer it!

Closing the chapter of my life at KY

Well, it ended.

My ordeal at (survival difficulty: extreme) jungle had officially ended. As much as I hate to admit it, I wish I would be able to go back there with my friends.

I went back to college on Thursday by the mean of Commuter. Well, it wasn't the best way I would say. I pushed off at 2.30pm, ending up in Tg. Malim at 5.50pm!!! End of semester dinner was held that very night. The food wasn't extraordinarily tasty but I had a great deal of fun! The next day was our full dress rehearsal for the big thing= Awards Day.

Somehow, those 2 days just flew right away. And here I am, sitting at home.

Gosh! I can't believe it. I can still remember the very first day I came to KY. I was lost, homesick and wished I had never chosen to do A levels. Now, I felt the complete opposite. I made friends, learnt to be independent and etc. So yeah, this is the best decision I made so far.

Well, good things gotta end for us to appreciate it. I closed a fruitful chapter in my life and now waiting to open another. My mum told me don't be so nostalgic because I will end up with a lot of baggages. But!!! I don't think those are baggages. They are all good and wonderful memories that I want to keep forever!

First Prom( Erhem, External Dinner to be exact)

"100 bucks, you know?? So expensive! I don't think it's worth it for a night at KL!" This is what I said when someone asked me whether I am going to prom, well more correctly, external dinner for seniors.

I planned to skip prom since the very beginning because, firstly it is so expensive! Plus, nobody is going anyway. And thirdly, my parents are at overseas that time. I once told my friends if I am able to go to prom, then I am sure miracles do happen in real life. However, unexpected things always happens to me.

Suddenly, everyone wanted to go and so I decided if I can pursue my mum to let me, then fine, I'll go. Back then, I thought my mum wouldn't say yes but!! She said it is up to me. So, I ended up signing up before I have a second thought.

The night was a memorable one for me. It was my first ever prom and a good one as well. Those who were there should figure that out themselves and I am sure everyone enjoyed it as much as I did. The food was okay and it was quite entertaining. Now, I feel that's the best 100 bucks I had ever spent, well excluding good food I guess.

I danced for the very first time, well with someone ( you know what I mean). It was quite awkward but I enjoyed it. Got to spend time with my friends and well.... Okay, this is getting embarrassing.... Anyway, I had a wonderful time and I am sure I am not the only one who thinks so!! =D

Mistake? don't think so

A levels had ended, which means that's the end of my life at KYUEM. Well, if I was still the same person back during the start of this semester, I will be very happy and saying 'thank god it ended!! Finally I can go back to my comfort zone!'

However, I wish it would not end now. Not when I just started to enjoy my time there. I always thought that coming to KY is a bad choice that I had made, but not anymore. Because I went there, I learnt how to be independent, learnt how to socialize with people, adapt to my surrounding and meeting 'you'.

So, I really gonna miss that place.. Things that I would miss:

1. Wednesday Western dinner

2. Weekend sport and computer games

3. Tuesday and Thursday vegetarian night :)

4. Ramlee's burger

5. RC time

6. Heart stabbing by FY

7. After dinner chat:)

8. Talking with friends.. Mostly gossip, I guess

9. FRIENDS!!!!!!

10. erhem.. you guys should know (wink)

11. ONG KAI YE!!!! Most beautiful girl in KY, Happy now?? :) LOL

Well, coming to KY is not a mistake, NOT AT ALL. And I'll never forget my days in this college because although everyday we did the same thing over and over again, each day is memorable.

Anyway, I still have prom and graduation to attend, so I'm going back there..