Yes, I finally entered the second decade of my life. Well, let's be frank. It's a miracle that I am still living because we all know that human life is so fragile and one minute we are breathing, the next we might be lying in a small box forever. So, I am really blessed to still be able to make full use of my cardiac and respiratory system. A big thank you for all of those that wished me on that day. You guys made my day.
Birthday, well.. I wonder why that birthdays aren't as exciting as they used to be when I am still a kid. Maybe because of the presents, I guess. Oh no, the problem is not that I can't get what I want. Rather, it is because I can't think of anything I want. I mean, back in those days, I have so many things on my wish list. A laptop, new handphone, trips to oversea, designer bags and et cetera. Those things are not achievable when I am still in secondary school. However, everyday feels like my birthday in this recent years. When I told my dad I wanna go somewhere during my summer break, poof! The next day he told me he booked a tour to Italy for me and my mum. When I complained my handphone is not functioning, he bought me a new one right away. Gosh, when I think of it that way, he pampered me too much. That makes me want to do well and make him proud in whatever I can.
They said the big 2 means that you are no longer a teen. I say bah! I still feel the same way as I was in 19. To me, age is just a figure and well, my brain still tells me I am a teenager *laugh*. What really shocked me is the surrounding. Recently, many of my cousins SUDDENLY became off market( unavailable ).. And well, even my friends started to have someone special in their life. I, on the other hand, is still struggling to find that someone special. Not that I am desperate or anything like that. Sometimes, I kinda feel the pressure from the older generation, especially grandparents, asking whether I have a boyfriend or something like that and suddenly the whole attention is turn towards you. When I reply saying that I don't really need it, my dad would say I am crazy. *sigh* life sure is hard.
Anyway, I still find it unbelievable that I am now 20 because my mind keeps telling me I am still the same old 14 years old trying to find myself :)
