This week, I am sadly to say, staying back in my college. Well, the good thing is that, I can study. I can't believe that it's going to be 2 months until my AS exam trial. I mean, I just got out from SPM and now this? Man, it makes me think that I am actually speeding to get out of education. Well, that's what the original plan of my parents and myself, right? Graduating a year earlier than my secondary school's friends who went to Form 6. Now, everybody is thinking about his/her personal statement.
The point is, 99.9% of this college's students are going to UK. BUT, I am not. I am the 0.01% student. Sometimes, having know that I am not going to UK makes me think that I am not up to other people's standard and I am just going to stay in Malaysia, so why bother coming here in the first place? The students here are studying everyday cause they are aiming for Cambridge and Oxford or other top universities in UK. But me? I am just a girl whose going to University of Nottingham in Malaysia. Yes, in Malaysia.
Does that mean that I am not as good as other people? I don't need to work as hard as people? I am dumb enough to stay in Malaysia? Well, after thinking about it, the answer is NO! I work as hard as any other people and I do not consider myself as some lazy old bum and not as good as other people. There are a few reasons for me to stay:-
1) I am not sponsored and going to UK is expensive in terms of tuition fees as well as the cost of living.
2) UK is extremely far and that means I can only come back once in a year.
3) I am the only student doing pharmacy in the entire batch and that's mean I will be going alone to UK.
4) Money. Yes, everything is about money!
I do want to get the best education, believe me. But, after much consideration, I decided to stick with twinning program of 2+2 in Nottingham Malaysia campus. Well, I might consider Curtin University Australia as Australia is nearer and the cost of living is not that high as compared to UK.
It's just the thought of everybody going to top universities that bothers me. I don't want to be think as someone who is not qualified enough to be accepted into the top universities.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
Opening my second chapter
Today, I got back to the jungle.. Literally....
It takes me more than an hour to unpacked. Then, me and Dal decided to go to cafe for a late lunch. That time, my heart is still at home. I am just a mere body without a soul wondering around the college. After lunch only, my senses had slowly creep back into my body. I begin to feel that I am once again here.
I felt homesick, that's the sign I get when I finally realised that I am indeed here. Here again.....
Of course, I felt like going home. I felt that something is missing in me, but I did not cry. I kept reminding myself that in 2 weeks time, I will be back home.. Yeah... In two weeks time... Huh....
I need to distract myself in the mean time... I found manga powerful in distracting me.....
GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It takes me more than an hour to unpacked. Then, me and Dal decided to go to cafe for a late lunch. That time, my heart is still at home. I am just a mere body without a soul wondering around the college. After lunch only, my senses had slowly creep back into my body. I begin to feel that I am once again here.
I felt homesick, that's the sign I get when I finally realised that I am indeed here. Here again.....
Of course, I felt like going home. I felt that something is missing in me, but I did not cry. I kept reminding myself that in 2 weeks time, I will be back home.. Yeah... In two weeks time... Huh....
I need to distract myself in the mean time... I found manga powerful in distracting me.....
GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
The Plain Solid Truth
I noticed that I haven't been honest with myself for a long time. Ever since I was stabbed deeply in the heart by a jerk.. So, I will tell something which is true about myself this time.
Firstly, I am really lazy..
I can sit wholeday reading manga and watch anime.
I hate people who are not honest but I am behaving like one, I think sometimes.
I am interested in someone who had 2 vowels in his/her name.
I am seriously homesick, even now.
My mental age is not my physiological age.
Sometimes, I just want to lie in the bed the entire day.
I think I am slacking in whatever I am doing.
I am emotional and sensitive.
My sense of humor is undeniably dry.
And, I think I should stop right now!!!
Firstly, I am really lazy..
I can sit wholeday reading manga and watch anime.
I hate people who are not honest but I am behaving like one, I think sometimes.
I am interested in someone who had 2 vowels in his/her name.
I am seriously homesick, even now.
My mental age is not my physiological age.
Sometimes, I just want to lie in the bed the entire day.
I think I am slacking in whatever I am doing.
I am emotional and sensitive.
My sense of humor is undeniably dry.
And, I think I should stop right now!!!
Switching language
Yesterday, I found out that they are switching back into teaching science as well as math in Bahasa Malaysia. I think it is quite ridiculous. No offense but it really is.
Take my younger sister for example, she is sitting for her UPSR this year and will be entering secondary school next year. During form 1 to form 3, she will learn math and science in english. Yet, when she reached form 4, she will be learning it in BM. Think about it, all the terms for especially science will be in BM when she reached form 4. I am sure she will have a hard time trying to re-learn everything. Plus, after learning 2 years in BM, she will switch back to English as I am sure my dad will send her for A-level. That time, she will have to struggle again to re-learn the whole thing. What a waste of time and energy trying to learn the same thing all over again for twice!
As our leaders wished Malaysia will be a fully-grown country in near future, why switch back? All of the materials are in English now and we all know that English is no doubt, the international language. By learning Chemistry, Biology and Physics in BM, is it going to help the students to excel better in Universities? NO! I know the reason of switching back is due to the drop of grades in rural areas. Yes, it is true. But, this is just a short period of time for them to adapt and I strongly believed that, with the help of good English-speaking teachers and time, they will improve. Now, by switching back, we are going backwards. In long run, they will not benefit from this as they will have difficulties when they go to Universities.
When we want to learn something, we must start from young. I am sure everybody knows it. This also implies to this particular issue. By teaching the children from young age, they won't struggle when they reached secondary schools. Moreover, they will have no problem as they go to universities because language is no longer a barrier from them. They can soar to anywhere as long as they are capable of understanding in English. If the teachers can't teach properly in English, well make sure they do. This can be done by having seminars or even giving tests to teachers to make sure they know what they are teaching in English.
We must think in long run not short period. We should not spoon-fed the schoolchildren just to make sure they get a whole load of As in their public exam! This will not help them. Imagine if they get scholarship to study in UK and when they reached there, they don't even know how to communicate well in English. What will the developed countries think Malaysia is? Still a third world country that has yet break the language barrier!
I seriously think the government should reconsider changing the system. If it only implies to primary school then it is still acceptable but not secondary schools. They should think in long run and toughen up the students. Please don't give an easy way out for the school children, they should think positively instead of moaning of changing for a easier life. Nothing is easy in this world!
*If you guys have any opinion, do drop by and give comment about this issue! I think my younger siblings will have to go to international school if this issue is left like this.
Take my younger sister for example, she is sitting for her UPSR this year and will be entering secondary school next year. During form 1 to form 3, she will learn math and science in english. Yet, when she reached form 4, she will be learning it in BM. Think about it, all the terms for especially science will be in BM when she reached form 4. I am sure she will have a hard time trying to re-learn everything. Plus, after learning 2 years in BM, she will switch back to English as I am sure my dad will send her for A-level. That time, she will have to struggle again to re-learn the whole thing. What a waste of time and energy trying to learn the same thing all over again for twice!
As our leaders wished Malaysia will be a fully-grown country in near future, why switch back? All of the materials are in English now and we all know that English is no doubt, the international language. By learning Chemistry, Biology and Physics in BM, is it going to help the students to excel better in Universities? NO! I know the reason of switching back is due to the drop of grades in rural areas. Yes, it is true. But, this is just a short period of time for them to adapt and I strongly believed that, with the help of good English-speaking teachers and time, they will improve. Now, by switching back, we are going backwards. In long run, they will not benefit from this as they will have difficulties when they go to Universities.
When we want to learn something, we must start from young. I am sure everybody knows it. This also implies to this particular issue. By teaching the children from young age, they won't struggle when they reached secondary schools. Moreover, they will have no problem as they go to universities because language is no longer a barrier from them. They can soar to anywhere as long as they are capable of understanding in English. If the teachers can't teach properly in English, well make sure they do. This can be done by having seminars or even giving tests to teachers to make sure they know what they are teaching in English.
We must think in long run not short period. We should not spoon-fed the schoolchildren just to make sure they get a whole load of As in their public exam! This will not help them. Imagine if they get scholarship to study in UK and when they reached there, they don't even know how to communicate well in English. What will the developed countries think Malaysia is? Still a third world country that has yet break the language barrier!
I seriously think the government should reconsider changing the system. If it only implies to primary school then it is still acceptable but not secondary schools. They should think in long run and toughen up the students. Please don't give an easy way out for the school children, they should think positively instead of moaning of changing for a easier life. Nothing is easy in this world!
*If you guys have any opinion, do drop by and give comment about this issue! I think my younger siblings will have to go to international school if this issue is left like this.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
When you are older, does not exactly mean you are wiser though...
Last week, I leapt from 17 to 18.. Yeah, A year older...
I started my B-day with a sorethroat and my sick sister disturbing me to wake me up. Then, I was greeted by Fang Yen's birthday wish.. She was the first one! Followed by Eng Chin, Karming(my "brother"), Andrew, Jasmine and Illiany~
My mum literally forgot my birthday as my sister was sick and she was thinking about cooking mee suah for lunch... Anyway, I turned on my PC and something finally brigthen up my day! So many birthday wishes are on my facebook.. Later, I spent the whole afternoon reading comic. My mum finally remembered today is the day, so she bought me a pair of New Balance shoes which cost RM139.90!! My sister gave me another Gugu, a smaller one though.. For those of you who doesn't know about Gugu's existence, you can always ask me!
My dad simply called to wish me. I did not see that coming though! LOL... We had dinner in Kensington and bought a Baker's Cottage cake. The saddest part is that only 3 of my family members are celebrating with me. My mum was busy washing bottles whereas my sick sister was being knocked out by stomachache..
Although it was not really a celebration, I want to thank all my friends.. Let see.. Diba, Subana, Geetha, Anju, Shifa, Sheldon, Shen Hong, Sally, Dom, Dal, Jim, Evan, Abigail, Wai Shan, Sandra, Eng Chung, Phui Gi, Gregory, Pei Xian, Loshini, Jean, Min Shen, Wei Khee, Azri, Bryan, Arif, Ben, Ili, Amirah, Jo Ann and Krishna! Oh and my cousin in law to be, Wen yi~
I started my B-day with a sorethroat and my sick sister disturbing me to wake me up. Then, I was greeted by Fang Yen's birthday wish.. She was the first one! Followed by Eng Chin, Karming(my "brother"), Andrew, Jasmine and Illiany~
My mum literally forgot my birthday as my sister was sick and she was thinking about cooking mee suah for lunch... Anyway, I turned on my PC and something finally brigthen up my day! So many birthday wishes are on my facebook.. Later, I spent the whole afternoon reading comic. My mum finally remembered today is the day, so she bought me a pair of New Balance shoes which cost RM139.90!! My sister gave me another Gugu, a smaller one though.. For those of you who doesn't know about Gugu's existence, you can always ask me!
My dad simply called to wish me. I did not see that coming though! LOL... We had dinner in Kensington and bought a Baker's Cottage cake. The saddest part is that only 3 of my family members are celebrating with me. My mum was busy washing bottles whereas my sick sister was being knocked out by stomachache..
Although it was not really a celebration, I want to thank all my friends.. Let see.. Diba, Subana, Geetha, Anju, Shifa, Sheldon, Shen Hong, Sally, Dom, Dal, Jim, Evan, Abigail, Wai Shan, Sandra, Eng Chung, Phui Gi, Gregory, Pei Xian, Loshini, Jean, Min Shen, Wei Khee, Azri, Bryan, Arif, Ben, Ili, Amirah, Jo Ann and Krishna! Oh and my cousin in law to be, Wen yi~
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