What is this compared to other people?

It was the second week of me in college and unfortunately to say, I am still homesick. While I am busy thinking about home and indulge in self-pity, something happened in our country.

I called my mum, telling that I am very depressed and I miss her... She is pissed off. Who wouldn't be?? I mean, I am really embarrassed about my behaviour as I am going back this weekend. My mum yelled at me, saying that why am I so concern about myself and not other people. Every word struck me, as they are completely true. She asked me whether have I read the paper this morning and I answered no. She told me to read as there are people and families suffering from more tragic things compared to me.

She was referring to the Dragon Boat Capsize in Georgetown. Students from Chung Ling High School drowned. She told me that she cried reading the news and I should care more about other people and less about myself. I went and search in Internet about the news. When I read it, tears are gushing out like a spoiled water tap. The pictures showing the family members crying about their sons being gone forever made me realise how spoiled I am. Compared the degree of suffering they are going through, mine is nothing.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/1/19/nation/5500220&sec=nation
This link made me cry a lot. It's really dreadful and the loss of someone you love dearly can never be replaced.

Lovesick

Finally,after 7 weeks of break, the time has come for me to pack up and go back to college. Yeah, time flies...

So, it's my last semester in KYUEM and after 2 semester, well I thought that maybe I will adjust really quickly at here. BUT, I WAS WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!! Well,the first day that I came back wasn't so bad as I arrived at the evening. The next day, I felt it.......

I miss my family, my dog and especially mum... Whenever my mum called, I can feel that tears are gushing out of my eyes. It's pathetic and I know that I shouldn't be feeling this but I am emotional.. My mum laughed at me when she called me, saying that I am lovesick. Well, maybe it's true. I am lovesick. I miss them dearly. But, what can I do?? I am here and this week is a short weekend, so there's no way that I can go back. Well, I just have to endure this and it will pass soon, just like the first semester. I think this happens when you are too attached to you family.

New year, new start?

Last year was considered a fruitful year for me. I continued my studies in college, leave home to live in KYUEM for the very first time, experience how torturous examination can really be and I've learnt to be independent.

In a swift, we had to bid 2009 farewell and welcome the year 2010. Yes.. I know, I know.. That means new year resolutions have to be made to ensure that I work towards my goal. For so many years, I am still doubting of which course should I be choosing for my university application. Whether I want to apply for medicine or pharmacy. I AM CLEAR NOW.

Thanks to my mummy and daddy, I know what I want in life, what quality of life am I pursuing. I am going to forget about medicine. YES, I am going to apply for pharmacy. Reason??? Well, after thinking for a while, I finally come to light. I want to pursue my interest after having a career. Interest is..... MUSIC. I noticed that if I am to pursue medicine, then I have to give up my interest because there is no way that I can be treating patients and manage a music school at the same time. So, I've finally decided. Pharmacy it is. (Provided I have the qualification to get myself into this course).

So, I hope that this year will be a fruitful one for all of you. :)